I don't know how this would be relevant to the bigger picture others shared here but this dynamic is highly relevant to my journey. For some time now, I'm working hard on healing my own dragon (better term would be 'waking him up'). It's been insanely hard to be consistent with anything for years now. Whatever I started with, slowly or quickly faded back into the previous state. With almost anything, it's been hard for me to do it more than three times - after the second try I just don't feel excitement nor motivation in repeating it again. It's like the new way never really existed. That way, it's hard to start new things or finish anything. Before something is finished, I jump to other more attractive thing.

I usually imagine this inertia as riding a bicycle through a very thick gooey mud. However hard I try, it slows me down and consume. After some time being desperate in the mud, I gather enough strength to start pedalling hard again, for as long as I can - to no long term effect. There is no fight with this mud, it repeats like this every time, sooner or later.

Meditating on this visualisation, I realised what could be the unconsciousness there for me. That is, refusal to fully surrender into the mud. I always want to get out of it too quickly.

Yesterday, I started reading Avalonia and this morning I was reading Enter the Dragon and was utterly mesmerized by Dju's beingness. Meeting aligned warrior always resonates some calling deep inside of me - be it with an actual dragon or just some random person in society with no-BS approach to getting things done - something I struggle with all the time, getting lost too much in the mind.

So what if the struggle here is refusal to surrender into the warrior? What if the way to embrace the warrior and to heal the dragon is actually the opposite pole - to surrender into it? Hard to put into words, but like there could be a subtle refusal of embracing the warrior and the way to it is paradoxically the opposite.

Also, what about Nordics? They seem to have this sorted out well. I was wondering what's been up with them and there seemed to be a connection with them yesterday.

...and to follow up with my previous exploration, I'll share this video from the Avatar episode that I saw the next day after my sharing about red-blue. It was a nice confirmation and made me smile.

Then yesterday, right after waking up I went to balcony to get some cold fresh air. Looking up I saw a straight line that seemed like a cloud. Watching it, it moved further until it turned into two seemingly perfect lines that merge into one.

Any reflection is welcomed and appreciated🙏

Dominik