Thank you for this snippet...I am presently in the space of asking what is at the root of this lack of fulfillment...is it social conditioning to produce and achieve in order to have value, or is it a soulful yearning drawing me toward a deeper and more full expression? Maybe both...When all the distractions are given less energy there is the core sense of lack here. It's easy to imagine that's because of stage of life or a need to express more masculine energy...but at the core it feels to me like a membrane that needs to be sunk through.This membrane feels like a boundary and acts like rubber bouncing me back to the surface and into distraction. If I stay with the lack and find okness with the experience then the membrane ceases to define the experience and clarity and rightness of action can emerge. Otherwise all of my actions are out of an avoidance of this feeling.

<3 Jen