Yes Open, your positive feedback is much appreciated. During recent times it became very obvious to me how my immediate environment is negatively influencing the emergence of the soul. I beleive its about engaging in those activities like mediation, or being with nature and building up the feeling - the rightness and expansiveness of the soul and we will reach the point where its much difficult to ignore the negative influence and what's the soul is calling forth in us. I think it's also important to say that the decision and the way to separate didn't come from the mind but there was a questioning that what I could do about the situation. But the choice was already there. Maybe this questioning opened up the opportunity and I followed that choice. If I had tried taking decision to change my situation in the level of the mind, then that would have been too difficult and controlling for where I'm at the journey. Not saying its how its supposed to be. So acceptance was crucial.

Another thing I'm exploring is the thrill and the sense of adventure in the uncertainty and not knowing. If I had full security and certainty of how I am gonna make it on my own, then that woudnt be nearly as interesting as the situation that I'm already in, although uncomfortable. With this realization I felt to take off the Ad that I had placed on my front gate for the maths class that I though I could give. All the while it was there I kept wishing that if none called! Strange but it was my defence. A defence everybody around fully appreciates. I enjoy connecting with children and imparting knowledge but it's not something I want to do. Now the road is once more clear. When we start to live alone it becomes obvious how little we need and how good it feels to lead a minimalistic life free from all the clutter . There is more space and time to do what we really enjoy in life.