Reading this article now, I have to touch again on something I have mentioned before and must honestly say I'm having an incredible hard time to accept and forgive myself for. Namely, the jabs which I now have no doubt about changing the DNA to prevent or at least mitigate the infusion of the new 5D.

I can accept that this makes my journey harder than it would have been if I had been awake at that time. The main problem I have is that it was no secret that it worked on a DNA level, I just couldn't be bothered to care. Nobody forced me or even had to put any effort into convincing me. I made the decision to have this stuff inserted in my body myself. I cannot help but look at this as a sort of ultimate acceptance that this physical body is not important enough to me to actually care about how the DNA is made up.

What I mean by this, even though currently I cannot deny there are definitely progress being made on the spiritual level. The physical change has been made willingly, especially since I just didn't care to be informed. Is it then truly a matter of 'deciding' to change my DNA through inner work, or didn't I just hand over the fate of my body so to speak to madness wearing a doctor's coat? It's not about the fate of this body, it's about how the inner work hits a wall that I allowed myself. If it were a matter of just deciding to break down that wall, then wouldn't it also be a matter of simply deciding to live in 5D? It doesn't sound right to me, too easy. I'm trying to describe it as accurate as I can, but have a hard time finding the right words.

My main reason for not being able to forgive myself is because of the permanent tinnitus that suddenly appeared after the second jab. It's always noticable and sometimes is so severe that I really want to believe I could change my DNA; but my foremost motivation would be to make that go away. Why did I manifest it? Well, I would say as a constant reminder of my stupidity, but it also raised the serious question if focussing on manifesting a way of making it go away, even if that would be manifesting from the ego or using intervention energies, is really such a bad choice. Is it an implant? I would like to believe that as well, for the same reasons.