Hi Open,

The past few days I have been reflecting on what I now identify as an addiction to food, specifically junk and sweet foods. In the past few years I have felt unable to go one day without some form of junk food (poison) and it hit me yesterday that if I can't go one day without such food then it's surely an addiction.

I have been keeping the issue in mind the past few days and a strong insight has landed: I am consuming these foods as a way of numbing myself to the pain of being here. The realisation goes very deep and is painful but it's also made itself known so that I can act and change the pattern I have become stuck in.

I have asked the 'show me' question of the universe but felt to post here for any advice, reflections or guidance you may have.

This feels like a deeply personal issue that is not easy for me to discuss but maybe this could help others going through the same thing.

Any insights would be much appreciated.

Thank you

Nikki 🙏