Hi Open,

I have copy-pasted these 10 advices to read them daily as a reminder.

How the energy wants to move for me: especially the Venusians are of great support ever since they introduced themselves to me three weeks back. Also, the Andromedans for their stabilization, the Pleiadians for making me laugh through the tears (third eye jokes are awesome) and the Arcturians for doing something involving the projection of geometric shapes through technology, which I find greatly intrigueing as I can somehow differentiate it from the geometry of Andromedans, but there is only a subtle feeling sense, best summarized as I have no idea what they're doing and where they fit into my process.

Also, of course, the Lyrans for their difficult to describe support; helping me maintain a humility through crown and upwards connections which I am having a ball exploring these days. It's still just me shining a flashlight into a vast and strange room but it is a familiair and interesting room. Draco connections have dimmed for now but they come and go; no need for explanations. All others who I cannot make a conscious memory of: thank you for the support you gave or are still giving.

They are helping me move through much emotional blockage I didn't even realise was there. I think I have cried more in the past weeks than the past ten or maybe more years. I have never been a real-men-don't-cry type of guy but there was always something preventing me from expressing emotions, even when alone.

It is impossible to describe without taking up half an hour of your time but suffice to say that there is some major unravelling going on, which culminated yesterday in a situation where I had a NO MORE moment and made some boundaries clear. The sad thing was that the woman in question didn't deserve the harshness of my words, but she is understanding of it as she is one of the people in my life who follows my growth the past 1,5 years and I openly share my Openhand experiences with. The bucket had been filled mostly by people I broke off contact with a while ago, and all she did was add the final few drops. I'm grateful that shes understanding and it seems likely that this is why the outburst happened when it did, but I still feel awful. However, I can now FEEL the importance of boundaries rather than just have an intellectual understanding of it.

This was yesterday shortly before noon and before 1 o'clock I was in bed with a terrible headache and crying my heart out over all the bagage I had accumulated in the past 20 years. I have always known I was more empathic than most people in my life, but it had never dawned on me just how many 'surely you see this' and 'you can't be blind to that' situations actually do involve a rare level of empathy. which made me aware of a great number of happenings where I completely misunderstood the situation because I didn't understand the way in which my angle was entirely different than that of the other(s) involved. This has emphasized my loneliness, especially as it helped tremendously to realize why I have never managed to maintain a romantic relationship (the longest was maybe a month) there was always something missing. Again, this entire story takes up a lot of time but I suddenly see the big picture which can be summarized as me going for it waaaay too fast just because that was the speed that everybody seemed to maintain.

I know the headache is related somehow, it is gone now after lying in bed for almost 24 hours but it was very localized at the right brain. I figured it was noticing an implant and I meditated on it to try and remove it, however I am fairly certain I didn't grasp it unless it can be removed without me actually feeling it.

At this moment the energy flow through the lower three chakras seems more permanent. I will keep an eye on this and make discernment of those areas a more prominent part of my daily meditation, but something major has definitely shifted within me.

Love and fun,

LtJ