Hi Barb,

Thanks for the honest sharing! Anger is quite an energy huh! Whether explosive, or searing, or just slowly simmering under the surface.

What stands out to me are the words "still believe the anger protects me". Who/what is it protecting? The little girl inside perhaps? Perhaps what's needed is to transform the anger into strong boundaries. But of course, to do that, the emotional charge has to flow through you without latching onto an outer object, like another person. Yes, recognise when something isn't right for you, but try not to lose yourself in blaming others. Taking responsibility is a big step towards empowering ourselves through anger.

In my experience, the BS energy doesn't feed off the anger or the sorrow when it is dealt with consciously. It feeds when it is unconsciously thrown out by making another person or outer circumstances the target of the energy.

Watch the energy and how it moves, express in a way that doesn't direct toward another person, watch it move again, keep expressing. When the charge is gone then use the energy to be very clear in your boundaries - stand firm in them. Then watch the feedback loops as a result.

Warmest wishes

Rich