Hi Open, thanks for your response. i've been trying to leave but something always derails it. i've come to believe i'm actually in a karmic prison of sorts, which is to catalyse my chsnge and growth. i believe my guides are simply helping me with everything i asked for, and to do that, i've been landed back to a very similar situation to my childhood which of course is the origin of my problems. i asked a psychic friend how to get out and she told me things would get better in 2 years, which is in about 9 more months. Other signs i've received seem to confirm it; my incarceration is 3 years. i do believe that i deserve it; i've been my own worst enemy and my distorted and unconscious behaviours have caused me so many problems. i've basically ruined my life. So as much as i hate it, i have come to believe it really is for my best and highest good and that not only am i so much more aware of my maligned behaviours and how i'm the cause, i have made progress and grown stronger, although, i still have a lot more work to do. i also believe that you are an integral part of my learning and that my guides led me to you. So much gratitude to you. i feel the best way to thank you is to evolve, so that is my mission. i'm still looking for apartments but i understand it just might not be time yet, and that's ok. And i agree with you completely; my breaking away will maybe be a lesson she needs. And break away i will. Thanks for confirming my thoughts on the matter; i still doubt myself too much. Much love, barb💙💙💙🙏