Nowadays I'm brimming with creativity than ever before and I have many creative projects and ideas going on. It feels really good to be in that flow state, with synchronicities clicking in and universe just supporting it with new ideas and flows. In many ways it's like the many armed budha Or a juggler just waiting for it to land at it's right time.

What stops the flow is attachment to the outcome. It's like I have to remind myself that it's not about the outcome but being in the flow state. There is a constant need for validation. When I get validation, appreciation for my gifts, there is an attachment in feeling good, worthy, confident and needing more of that feeling. I think when you need something like that, sure enough you manifest the opposite of that experience, the lack of validation. Then there is a seeking. I can see a pattern of seeking of checking social media and so on. I'm working to break the pattern. When this halt in the flow happens, I just sit in the sacred ground and feel the tightness, pain and sadness. What else is there to do? There is frustration. I think it's happening because the flow and it's feeling has come to a halt. I think the black snake energy can feed on even the positive feeling. A curios thing . That's when it's so hard to catch the damn thing.

But a part of also wonders, how can I not seek validation? The soul is looking for positive feedback. And it's not happening. Not even one. But I'm sure the creative impulse and the action had come from the soul. What am I missing here? I think I'm not really equipped to look and find it elsewhere. Like nature for instance.. I think if I can see that , it would be easy to break this pattern.
A part of me just want to flow and not stop. Not seek anything. Just be in the flow.

After the recent retreat I feel more sovereign and free. There is less motivation to connect in past relationship that I had valued so much only till recently. But when I connect there is a obvious dissonance and interference. My guess is reptilian. It's also bringing up urge for past addictive habits which I'm closely watching but being careful not to give into. Will this mean I will be alone? Sacrifice? I think validation is coming from there. It's a comfort of being in the old self.

Would love to get some reflection and not validation. Lol

Vimal 😇🙏