For all your work, and for bringing us along. The pictures are divine. This week has been a lot of lower chakras work, including deeper looks into something I've been avoiding looking at but a trigger has brought it closer to surface. I've been having to temper it's full emergence because of where I live but I'm still nipping at it every day. So much sadness anger powerlessness coming up, and the same old issues of feeling unwanted and unwelcome. Saturday was a deep depression and paranoia, but Sunday I forced myself out to the park nearby with my cat and that helped immensely. There was a reminder by way of a stranger's behaviour that my energy will draw to me that same energy and a new incentive to start interrupting those bouts so as not to dwell in them. Throughout the day I continued doing the things that uplift me and felt renewed, and was able to accomplish the most pressing tasks I'd been neglecting. That's how to get some dopamine flowing, not screens! Besides more and more I feel how it just sucks my energy from me and leaves me feeling low. An opportune visit to YouTube brought me Russell Brand's monologue on that e$$ed-up law that got passed here and I'm struggling with it, even as the city I live in moves to add fluoride to the drinking water. When I lived in BC they held a public referendum for this matter, giving the people the choice (we said no!) but now it's FORCED on us without our consent!!! But as certain as the dualistic nature of this universe, i now feel galvanized by it and feel an increasing incentive to change how I live because my interest in this madness is waning by the day, euphemistic ally speaking. So feeling a deep mourning for my old life, the animals, trees, freedom, justice...but OH has shown me that what's coming, one way or another, is the re-balancing so needed. May we all wake up and learn and free ourselves! May the dragons ever soar! So grateful Open, thank you, and thank you to the facilitators!🙏❤️

P.S. Just woke, feeling same old depression, but clearer insight allows me to see it's from same old child/teenager me not having someone like my father to latch on to, who'll make things fun, give something to look forward to. And it's summer that has triggered it. I keep trying to repeat the good times in my life. I see how I still rely on higher energy people to boost my own energy and sulk if I don't have anyone. I am the original energy vampire, something that irks me so much in others. Oh the irony! Now I understand why I'm such a magnet for that energy. I know exactly what my path is now but teenage me resists, always looking for the next thing to entertain and distract. Which is why the one in me that desperately wants and needs realignment and reconnection is glad the internet has become so dangerous. Even my teen isn't down with that anymore. But she still wants to be entertained. Reading Resurrection last night and resonating again with the need to push past the thing I resist so much, boredom. Not having anything to do. That's the modus operandi: if I have no one to boost me then I do stuff to get that feeling of reward from doing. And if I'm struggling with low energy and pain I reach for the next thing: eating, getting high, etc. I keep trying to give myself things to do, go to school, attend seminars, still looking for external fixes. Avoiding to exponent infinitum. I came across the term Wallfacer, and somehow applying that term to me, as in, this is it sister, this is the only thing you need to be doing now, this is the job you need to get on with, is helping me focus and commit. And seeing clearer how I keep reliving the same old life is galvanizing change. Do I have that patience to sit until the mud clears indeed. It's high time I put my money where my mouth is. It's a relief to see all this, takes the depression right away. And also heartening when I realize how lucky I am in a sense to have been afforded the opp rtunity to do this work. It's time. Now stop fooling around woman! Deeply indebted to OH.🙏❤️