I am undoubtedly seeing these distortions in my own behaviours and can relate to just about everything you have all expressed. I'm chagrined and concerned taht I'm still not fully committing to unravelling these distorted behaviours. That I'm only half-heartedly doing the work without really holding the space for true karmic unravelling. I feel I am still allowing myself to be manipulated by Ra so easily and not wanting to let go of what clearly derails me. Seeking attention, sympathy and validation rather than sitting with my shadow. Still seeking someone to give me what I can only give myself. Still avoiding. Still afraid. I own it but now must also own the process. I'm grateful to this exploration as it brings to light what I haven't been able to, or wanted to clearly see myself. Thank you.