Open, I keep asking myself this question all the time! I can see how I allow myself to be pulled into the same tired habits and neediness and I'm exhausted. Bored and sick to death of myself. I've always been great at planning but the follow through is absent. f it's not fun i go back to avoidance. I always know what to say but not how to truly be. I think I'm ready now. A brief vision the other night showed me something quite profound and even though I've lost the initial feeling of it, I remember enough to have something to strive for: a me I've forgotten that is so much more than this. Beyond words. Until you experience it you can't truly know and now i know so there's no more excuses. Open i can't tell you how grateful i am to you for not giving up on me and my silliness. Words can't express my gratitude for your support and honesty. I won't flinch anymore when the snow owl wants to land with truth. Im ready to be carved up. With love and deep respect, barb🙏💙