Had a great weekend of intense triggers and derailment, that have given a necessary swift kick t get back on track. It's been highly painful and scary, but very much worth it; strengthening resolve and commitment, deeper sense of truth, and the shifting of fundamental, misaligned behaviours and thought patterns. Everything is getting challenged and the old tricks have been brought to light. Yesterday I'm in the apartment and etting a growing pul to get outside, especially to ground, so I did. I approached it differently, not allowing myself to get distracted by other residents, keeping it light and on the surface instead of letting myself get pulled in. Consciously focussing on what the internal pull was showing me. I felt a connection to Gaia that I hadn't felt in some time, and I luxuriate in every colour, shape, pattern, vibe. The Light. Then the reminder we came down for connection, so I found a spot that fell right, closed my eyes and started to grow roots reaching down to Gaia's heart, going down with them and giving her heart a loving and thankful hug. But then a sense to open my eyes, and right there in the sky where my gaze naturally fell because it was low enough and right in front of me: a perfect little 3d heart cloud. To me it felt like a hug back from Gaia, a welcoming back. A pat on the back for facing the work and forging through the pain of going cold turkey. I used to coddle every little discomfort but I've been learning to be patient with it (do you have the patience to sit still until the mud clears...?) and that shows me I can handle more than I gave myself credit for. A jumping for joy I'm finally respecting this glorious vessel that has been my home. And the re committment to the path. The brain clouds I saw the other day have been around before, and last time I gotta sense they were marshalling the thunderstorms that had been circling around all day. I remember the energy feeling tense and volatile, it felt like the brains were corralling the thunderstorms to wherever dense energies needed to be cleared. I hesitate to say this for sure; at my level on the path it could be imagination or front-loading, but it felt strong and right. I hope I get a chance to see them again and try and connect. Wow. What a journey!(So far)🙏