I have some serious personal concerns after your explanation at the facilitator conference, about souls having karma stripped when they are harvested meaning that it is very hard to clear their karmic load.

You know my history as a recovered grey for want of a better term and having remembered the moment when absolutely everything was stripped away from me, including my connection to the Divine, I am guessing that this going to be an issue for beings like me, who lost absolutely everything, presumably.

I know I probably get karma triggering less than many. When I do, I rarely get the ‘circumstances’ but seem to process quite a lot of emotion anyway. It took years to join the dots on my Sirian karma and I only finally accessed the pain of doing my best to stop what was happening there, and my best not being good enough, at the conference last week. So I have some questions I would be grateful for your input on, as the implications for me as a being have only just landed with an enormous bang, which feels pretty devastating.

1) You said karma can be recovered, but it is not easy. It seems to kick in for me more often than it did, which is great, but do you have any insight as to the best way to proceed to clear all I can. In fact is there any point in my even trying?

2) If everything is stored in the akashic records, which came to mind as I write, might a key to resolving this be there? I know very little about the akashic records so am asking this question from a position of comparative ignorance.

3) Do you think my history be part of the problems with my intuitive sense? It’s like a loose wire that is sometimes connecting to the mains to some degree and other times is not connected at all. Hence the feeling that the other side has 20/20 vision, bazookas and machine guns and I am there with a peashooter and a blindfold. The pain and frustration of wanting to help, yet sensing nothing when we were working with the ‘balloon’ of harvested souls Ann was dealing with (which really triggered me) hit new highs this weekend and I had to work hard to push down the internal scream of ‘I want to help’ and release that pain and the ball of frustration in my solar plexus which reached a pitch approaching rage.

Patience, accepting, not intentioning and trusting for several years seems to have only effected a minimal improvement. I have all the other skills required for facilitation, but how can you be a facilitator when sometimes you can feel into someone’s field and intuit what is going on and others you might as well be sitting there whistling Dixie? Not to mention the difficulties in establishing what the heck the energies are which turn up in meditation sometimes.

Any input/advice you can give would be gratefully received as I don’t even have the words to express how I am feeling just now.

Much love

Pam