Hi Open,

I’ve read this article twice but not all of it has landed yet.

As for how I’m being challenged and working through, most of what’s coming up right now for me is karmic.

I have been doing the chakra attunement meditation daily for months and things have been really shifting as a result.

I noticed in meditation that it is usually the heart that I need to breathe into, and for the past week or two, I’ve had a fluttering sensation in the heart chakra which has felt like a strong vibration at times. I realise now it is likely the heart chakra opening as a result of the attunements and continued working through my Sirius karma

The past few weeks I have been making myself take the train to work. I have often felt panicked when on a train or tram in the past which I realise is linked to leaving Sirius in a small shuttle/capsule where I was travelling at high speed. So in an effort to feel into those feelings, I’ve been making myself get the train. Further realisations around anticipating a crash came up, and although I came out of the feeling a few times, I was able to sit in the terror of the anticipation of the collision.

In a facilitation session yesterday I was able to work with the collision and the guilt at leaving my family behind on the planet. There was a physical block in the heart and high heart chakras which I worked with and removed, but which also led to the discovery of black snake energy, centred in the heart chakra, which I was able to expel.

Other reflections have been triggering karmic ties including a panic attack at the dentist when water splashed on my face, leading to a past life realisation where I had drowned.

On the La Palma retreat I discovered karmic ties with another openhander, which has been reflected in my own life as a sense of entitlement and a feeling that others will clean up any (physical) mess that I make, and a knowing sense of sexual manipulation, a strong sense of distorted power, and a level of cruelty alongside that. I am still working through this but events in la palma shone a light on my own behaviour, and just being aware of it has already shifted it significantly.

I’m also getting flashes of ‘daily life’ in my previous biblical-time life so I’m sure the Jordan retreat will be interesting!

Much love,

Nikki 🙏