Lovely video, as always, and you are particularly glowy😊; I saw you in my mind once with lots of golden light around you. I also saw once how the words you write weren't just 2d, they were connected through a tube of energy that radiated the energy of the words. So grateful for all that beautiful uplifting, inspirating energy. Did you notice the cloud being behind you in the intro? Looks like it was enjoying watching you dance with the energies.

Been in a sort of transition last couple years and although it's been my intent for some time to attend I recognize now it's just not time for me yet. I have so much crap to unravel still to even get to a point where little me isn't trying to constantly steal the show for validation. Sure i lacked it as a child but at some point I have to see only I can give me what I need. I'm working on it. But the attachment is quite strong, and it's going to take a while longer to get to a point where I will go to retreats to get the most from them without sabotaging my own experience. And so I think the reason I haven't been able to get even my passport yet, which I do have money for, is simply because it's just not time yet. In the meantime I work on putting myself back together and securing resources necessary to attend retreats. So I'm enrolled in college for a one year program for medical lab assistant. I struggle with the fact there may not be a health care system soon so what's the point? But something tells me there's time and it's a great opportunity to regain at least some financial independence and the perceived freedom of a vehicle, and of course deeper involvement with OH. I'm seeing too how I always want to instantly get to my goals; this step by step approach I hope will help me gain more patience, prescence and perseverance, and a deeper understanding of the joy of the journey.

I've been facing lots of deeper fears, and seeing how vital conne tion with SGOB is. What I notice about Netflik's is just how good they've become at pulling and keeping people in. I saw it as a "HAL" eye in the center of the screen but pulled back into it like it's creating a vacuum to suck attention. Knowing it helps and breaking the spell often by simply redirecting attention regularly. But the psychology employed in these movies lately is impressive (Oxygen, Whiplash, 3 Body Problem). I recently watched a doc about Allessia Zecchino, a prominent free-diver. I'm no expert but if I was going to guess I'd say there is a high alignment with Pleiadian energy there! I find myself highly drawn to free-diving since watching it (The Deepest Breath); I long for the feeling of being so deep in the ocean unaided by tanks; the degree of stillness, the self-control one must employ...I'm utterly taken. Of course common sense says that ship has passed for me but what I can learn from it! Seeing her resurface after a dive and not able to reinflate a lung, and the eyes when they black out...Just facing this fear of dying, especially that way, is huge. And so so hard. I had an intense reaction. Making it a habit of checking in with SGOB regularly has increased trust in it, and there's no better place to be when facing one's death, that's what I'm beginning to feel. Facing aloneness is another one. Gut-wrenchingly difficult especially as I'd always seen myself as preferring solitude, but truth is I do rely on others. Only seeing it now. Reading about sasquatch makes me think I have some connections as I'm forever wanting to run to the safety of the forest, it's where I feel the best. Plus the fact I seem to sport a vestigial coat of fur 🤣 Is the fear of being alone just fear of death projected? I remember hearing that somewhere, that all dysfunctional behaviour and fear all just stem from fear of death. But I think that's why there're steps, so one can get more and more used to it while getting closer and closer to soul. Grateful to hear other's experience on facing fear of death.

The day here started out rainy, but now the clouds are gone and Sol reminds me how good it is to be alive and just how blessed I am. Wishing everyone an expansive, illuminating, joyful day!🙏