Hi Open,

Thank you for your insights on this. I’ve been sat with it for several days, during which time I’ve been in enquiry with the possibility.

The enquiry also triggered another angle - the ‘wanting’ to work with a specific group and the external searching and over-analysing of signs and synchronicities, and a noticing of a dampening down of these signs when this searching and wanting it to be a certain way was occurring.

This led to an even deeper enquiry - needing or expecting things to always be a certain way in every day life or specific circumstances. It’s where I feel I’m attached to the old construct, a point well taken this past week with an experience that didn’t go ‘to plan’ and as expected at all.

An experience with a very tiny spider (any bigger and a fear response would probably have taken over!) whilst driving caught my attention strongly during this enquiry. In its actions, it showed me that I was hanging on too tightly and to let go, and in doing so, new and unexpected pathways would appear from nowhere.
Although this reflection spoke clearly to me, it’s still an ongoing inner ‘battle’ to recognise when I’m hanging on too tightly to the construct I see ‘out there’ and how I expect things to go. It’s not even ‘real’, it’s a construct and this human vessel has been programmed within it. The reflection was hugely helpful nonetheless and something to continue working with.

Going back to the invitation from my team, I have the sense that the group may be the Orions. I have worked with the group a number of times in the past, including in Jordan, and have felt them coming in strongly a number of times previously. I feel a sense of excitement in them at the possibility of working together going forward, and about what may be in store for me. Although I don’t have a full sense of what will be required, and the challenges I’m likely to face in ‘school’, I’m in. Let’s see where the journey goes.

Best wishes

Nikki