Thank you, Open, for the reflections- I appreciate it. 🙏

I do see that the overpowering and violation is already and has been happening - and I do not believe at all that the current administration is trustworthy. I do appreciate the value of Trump's apparent transparency - it's the movement of energy that scares me, the anger and discontent that is fueling parts of the movement. And I do understand it - the feelings are justified - it is the unleashing of pent-up feelings of being stepped on, suppressed, lied to, and yes, it is this brashness and the anger that is triggering feelings of overwhelm, and your reflection speaks into my experience.

You said: Whatever you trigger or react to. AND, it's crucial to realise, this ALSO co-creates the current scenario. People create, and get locked into, their own polarisations.

Yes, so through my disassociation with the capacity to "wave my flag"/honor rightness as I feel it at the moment, no matter who it hurts or how anyone feels about it, I am part of projecting that into the external, which further allows me to judge and polarise that aspect of myself. There is a big fear of being exposed and being vulnerable to strong reactions in others. This causes hiding and management of expression.

You asked: where are you concealing your own freedom of authentic expression? Where might you be pushing it down and suppressing it?

This theme has been coming up with a close family member who naturally speaks with a lot of passion (which I feel as anger), and it has on multiple occasions triggered the body into feeling frozen - unable to physically or verbally navigate what feels like an attack and fear for my safety - this turns into whole body shaking for hours. I am guessing that the holding back is what builds the energy to a place that becomes more destructive.

I appreciate the feedback - there is a lot to work with here on this theme. Thanks so much!!💓