Yesterday we had a blizzard whip threw my area. Being the good soldier that I am I drove in it to get to work because people relied on me to be there. After a 13 hour shift I started my drive back home. It is midnight, the wind was blowing and whipping 40 miles an hour but I could see the outline of the road. Great, I should be able to navigate my way. The trip was fine in the beginning and then the last 15 miles all hell broke loose. The wind picked up and I lost the protection of the buildings and the trees along the road. Complete white out. I looked out my side window and I could see the edge of the road. So I rolled my window down and drove following that edge that the plow carved out. I drove along for awhile looking for my turn off and realized I missed it. I had to turn around and many 4 letter words later I was back on the main road where I started. I was not happy about this because it added so much more time out in this mess to fumble around trying to find my way. However, I realized the road was bigger and had less snow on it. I crept along and noticed flashing red lights up ahead. A car had gone in the ditch trying to make a turn on a cross road. I stopped and the gentleman walked up to my vehicle where we exchanged "what are you doing out here" banter. Ridiculous stuff. Neither one of had a very good answer. I asked him if he knew anyone from the town I live in and turns out he knows my next door neighbor. How funny. So we tootled along the last 3 miles and I dropped him off at my neighbors and I went home. From start to finish this trip took an 1 1/2 hours to go 25 miles. And yes I was in the inquiry of what are you trying to show me. What is it that I can not and will not see. This adventure last night is so reflective of my discombobulated state I am in right now. I can feel it when I talk about it but it is hard to articulate. Not being lost but blinded. I can't see, yet I am still looking at it. I can't see forward so I am drawn to the stability of the periphery. We explored the periphery in the last online retreat. What is it? Seemingly going in the wrong direction not knowing exactly where I am, yet emerging on the correct path. Wandering only to stop at a cross roads to find, another, very grateful, being to join me in the adventure. Ultimately coming home exhausted but happy to have initiated the journey. It was true chaos. Setting out in a direction and having it all fall away from what I thought it would be. This type of experience can not be altered or influenced or "messed with". Lately, I worry about the source of my information sometimes. Where does it come from and mostly how it influences my decision process. It has really made me stop and look at myself and where I am when I receive it. This glitch has really made me step back and take a deep look at how I am functioning in the deep density I am in. Where am I in my co-creation? Am I being reckless, rational, rambunctious, ridiculous, careless when I open up to what is around me to accentuate the experience? 💜