Lovely, your energy and emotions are wonderful to feel, especially given the darkness i walk in now. So much distortion from past that i still hang on to and now coming to light more and more. The old resistance i use as a defense mechanism; the constant negative feedback loops my ego engages in. i'm challenged daily. i resist and focus on ways to escape, but clarity comes more often now and i see how i am here because of the distorted energies i resonate and that no matter where i go i will never escape it until i purify and release it. Just as you always say. i am exactly where i need to be. learning acceptance. i close myself off so much and can only dream of connecting with others on deeper levels, being in harmony. Trusting. It occurred to me that in this realm, it takes work to rise up. It's easy to give in to the temptations but it takes work to overcome them and get to higher ground. Climbing the ladder out of the muck towards the light. All my old self ever wants to do is have it easy and pleasurable. And then the entitlement; i've gone through so much and suffered so much, i should be able to just rest and hide away from life. Well. As they say, there's no rest for the wicked. And i'm getting so tired of the pain, fear and anger, and the hollow things i use to numb myself from those, that i'm starting to look forward to the hard work ahead. i'm starting to welcome the fear so i can get going. Because i believe you when you say how great the reward is. To let things be. To let go of control and outcomes. To use my voice in the most authentic ways. To face unwaveringly the unknown. To let go of myself and the familiar comforts. To see who i really am and who i can really be and express myself fully and authentically and fearlessly. To fly free. Your love is palpable; a light in the dark. Thank you💙💙💙🙏Barb