Heyas all!
Open, I'm pretty sure Ive been in, lived in, experienced all that which is written there in the 5 gateway's about a million times over the course of my life. Which is a bit odd, its like knowing/seeing it all unfold and then jumping back out of the in between per say and pointing a finger at it all whilst saying OH WTF is that. What is happening here. Thats pretty much the moment Ive jumped off the ledge and entered back into focus/processing/must understand completely the entirety of this that I have experienced.

Treebrother, I would like to comment a bit on your comment about the Don't USA and shadow side. It's been said a gazillion times before, spoken and thought all in same, yet different ways.. But without a don't, there is no do. Without a shadow, there is no light. Without shame, there is no acceptance and so on and so forth you know.

Could just be me. I kinda live/love/cannot be anything but it all you know. I am the shadow side and I am the light side. I am the in between more or less too. I keep trying to comprehend fully both and everything in between, but then I see a squirrel outside my window and go Squirrel!!!! I love squirrels :) Then I realize I've just freed myself from the intense contemplation of it all and just decided to let it all just be as it will be. 3d, 5d, 20d.. Some day's its just all the same to me. It's like running through a sprinkler as a child. Left, middle, right. In one side, Oh look its the middle - how precious! Ooh now I'm on the other side lol
Is that not the dance of life?! Are we not supposed to enjoy everything while being in this state called life, or should it be limited?!

Ive tried many many times before to talk to other people about these sorts of things and most just say Michelle, you just need to dumb it down a bit more because you just flew back up in the air and I'm trying to get you, but I just cant. Because most if not all, are to me, picking sides. I do not understand this, it is illogical for me pick a side. Because what one perceives as shadow is just another form of light in the spectroscope.

Oh anyways, I finally purchased all the books. I am muddling through Breakthrough. I say muddling because I keep stopping, inhaling sharply and thinking OMG! Maybe that is what was and is screaming my name out. But then I don't understand this screaming of my name, I mean I know I'm half deaf and all but I'm not that deaf!!! This makes no sense to me, back to the drawing board I guess :)

Want for others what they want for themselves, in all things and in all way's
Wyndè