Thank you Open, thank you so much. And just seeing those words from Js touched me. “Yes. I feel the same.”

One thing that struck me is how I think I have misinterpreted 5 Gateways – I didn’t realise one could be working through more than one Gateway at a time, so I have been trying I guess to ‘tick all the boxes’ that would indicate to me I have gone through Gateway 1. I am not connecting with the magic of the soul because I can’t feel it or see it, so can’t get through the Gateway. I asked once on a workshop in Glastonbury, because I couldn’t see or feel my soul, did it mean I didn’t have one and your words gave me hope. Of course I have a soul. But two years down the road and I am still stuck.

So although I feel stuck myself, why do I find it so delightfully easy to support others becoming ‘unstuck’ if you like? I facilitated some motivation type training with colleagues and felt the pull to cover ‘being the best version of you’. I may not be able to feel my soul or see where it is, but oh my goodness – I can feel it in others. Literally feeling their confidence grow, seeing the almost imperceptible straightening of shoulders, the chin going up, eyes once locked to the floor, surprising themselves with their sudden ability to look into another’s eyes, feeling the toes dip gingerly into the water as they take a sneaky peek at who they are, feeling their joy when they realise that what they see is pretty freakin awesome! Now I feel all that and feel the humble joy of being able to gently support that amazing transformation. It makes my heart sing. So why can I see and feel another’s soul and be able to watch them realise just how worthy they are, but not my own? It doesn’t make sense at all.
I’m diving in to that ‘not making sense’ and trying to become one with it. It’s good to know you are all ‘out there’. It really is. Thank you. xxx