Thought and felt i would share some of my journey. I have been interested in the spiritual development for quite some time and longing for shifts. But when it came, it hit me like a freight train and challenged me to the core. Imagine leaving a "normal" life with family, kids and other attributes (what they call an American dream), and then it happened. Metaphorically speaking, it was like driving a nice car in the countryside all happy and then all of a sudden i hit the invisible wall and all my shit started flying that wasn't holding well and what remains is the core of me. It was like being in the shit storm.

This is difficult to write about ... but will keep going. There was some denial that it was happening and attempts to run away from it. But I knew i had to face it and work through it as it was my stuff. For some reason, i wanted to know all the details even though it really hurt. It looked like i was being sadistic to myself but now i know i was using the situation to go to all the places where i felt resistances and denial. Yes, it got really hot. I felt like i wanted to hold on to "hot coals" until they cool down at the point where i didn't need the situation to go away. And it did cool down and transformed me and our relationship. I am now more authentic and our relationship/partnership is more authentic. I know there will be challenges ahead but i am ready to deal with them when they come.

The whole experience was a breakthrough and i felt some shifts in consciousness in the process. I know i had to work through some attachments in physical and emotional planes. I am not where i am on the journey but i am excited about the coming transfiguration course in Bruges.

With Love,
Anatoly