This is a polemic topic - given all the warnings in this post - but it's relevant for me to explore it. It's worth saying that I'm in the pre-Gateway 1 experiences and I'm not advising anyone to take DMT.

Using DMT led me to a huge awakening and it "magically" made me find Openhand in the day following my trip. Of the psychedelics I've tried, DMT stands out for its purity. It simply raises your vibration for 10 minutes and then you come back. Other drugs like LSD require you to sleep, since they are much more "aggressive" to the mind.

My experience was very simple, since I took a few hits and didn't look inside myself - because I knew that if I did, my consciousness would journey far far far away from my body. It instantly made me clear that the Universe is just a playground of experience, ranging from deeply truthful and blissful ones :) to extremely hellish and fearful ones :(, and all of them were "inside" my body. This made me want to stay in the physical realm - who knows where the flow would lead me to?

Just after smoking, I felt immense peace in my heart and looked at my hands. I saw myself without any filters, just the way I am, and that made me think about all the times I treated myself badly or compared myself with others. I cried a lot - tears of joy, arising from seeing all the beauty that I've always been and will always be. It taught me a huge lesson on authenticity, which was "confirmed" by the posts I've read here since then. I could also sense the presence of my soul, coming from a "fire" inside my heart center.

Lately, I've been meditating on the feeling I had in the trip (back in June 2017). I simply dive into the memory of that day and try to feel all that boundless liberation, authenticity, joy, purity and connection with all things. This is also facilitated by a music that I was listening to at the moment, because I put that same music in those meditations.

And for my surprise, it's really working! Obviously, I cannot fully access the experience as I did taking the drug, as I only go as far as my current level of evolution allows me. But I do feel more surrendered than in normal meditations and my perspective on life expands too, as well as my inner sensitivity.

I just want to know if there's anything "wrong" in meditating this way. Some of you might think I'm looking for a shortcut, but I ask you in return: isn't living in 5D all about feeling connected, liberated and authentic? If I can access those feelings in an easier way because I have clear memories of them, then what's the problem? Afterall, we all carry that memory of oneness and all we're really doing in our meditations is grasping for it. I also know the final goal is not about the joy - it's about the nothingness. But in that joy I can easily become nothing in it!

Thank you for reading and apologies for the long text!

Eduardo