After browsing the forums I found this thread. The search was in relation to the planned use of LSD at the end of this month. However, I have found no comment in this thread which clarifies the question I have.

So first of all, my history of drug use and then the reason for the LSD plan. From about seventeen years old I started smoking marihuana. Living in the Netherlands made this a little bit too easy. I smoked it daily until I stopped smoking altogether seven years ago. So I smoked it for about eighteen years.

For a period of about two years, maybe up until nineteen or twenty, I used magic mushrooms every saturday night together with my then best friend. Again, the Netherlands was maybe not the best place to live. We never took more than half a portion each. We enjoyed 'getting silly' but had no desire to try and induce a full-blown trip, hallucinations or achieving anything spiritual; this was shortly before I was anywhere near anything spiritual. These trips never went wrong except for the last one (which is why it was the last one) in which we got into a heated argument about whatever, blown way out of proportions, and we were like: ok let's not do that again and that was just the end of it.

Over the years to come, I was often in the presence of people using many kinds of drugs, including a group of three friends who I think were basically on LSD all the time, but I had never ever the urge to use anything else than marihuana. I was fine with sitting in a room with people who were on whatever kind of dope, but I never felt the urge to use any other drug. Smoking marihuana was good enough for me.

In my twenties I was surrounded by people with outside-of-the-box mental abilities, in my thirties I lost it all and became someone convinced that nothing exists outside what we see and hear and a few months ago I was pulled into a freight train with a note attached that said 'here's that reminder about how stuff works'. I briefly mention this in the incoherent email I shared in my first post on the 'share your journey' forum and if I elaborate on it this post will became insanely long.

Main point is that stuff is happening very fast and so much that is happening now ties into things that have happened up to twenty years ago and everywhere in between, that my life has completed a cycle in which I have been to polar opposites of world views and it offers me a viewpoint I cannot describe.

Now onto the matter of the planned use of LSD. Given my history of not being interested in this at all ever, I was quite surprised that I suddenly found myself wanting to use it. But it didn't go away. The plan is to use half a dose. I have no intention of trying to find shortcuts towards enlightenment or inducing a severe state of altered consciousness or anything of that kind. The best description of the desire I can give is that I strongly feel that the jumble in my mind caused by the freight train needs something a basis to settle on, and that basis can be created by a certain mindset I can obtain in this way. Now, as I am still very much struggling with differentiating between true heart and ego-pretence, I should add that it feels like it would really help out but I am not sure whether that is my ego trying to regain whatever power it can. But since my history makes this decision an interestingly strange one, I am inclined to believe the ego is not involved in this.

Two more things are important to note here. One, I am absolutely convinced it will be a one-time thing. Even if after the use something inside will go 'wow, let's do that again' I will not do that after reading about the dangers here. I trust myself on this so I will repeat: I will use only half a dose and it will be a one-time thing.

The second is that the LSD will be provided by the only person from my 'magical' friends of yore who came back into my life a few years back, who I will call Intuition Girl because her gift was that she just knew stuff and then turned out to be right all the time. I therefore know I can trust her completely in that the LSD in question will not be some disturbing shite concocted by some cackling maniac. This conclusion is also strongly affected by the fact that me and her share a connection which feels like we go WAY back, like we agreed to always meet up in many lifetimes. If I had to choose just one person in my life to trust completely and wholeheartedly, it would be her with no competition.

In the posts of this thread I mainly see experiences relating to repeated use and/or high dosages, and this makes me wonder about the dangers in relation to a planned single usage of a small dose with no desire for shortcuts to spiritual enlightenment. The question therefore is: are the possibilities of attracting entities or suffering setbacks related to the fact that the mind is being altered in any way, or is it related to the mindset of the user who desires a shortcut or otherwise simply 'doesn't care and will go wherever the flow leads'? I am inclined to believe the latter. However would like to be aware of your opinion on the level of risk involved.