interesting,

Chris you spoke about your anchor word of "openess".. funnily enough i deleted a paragraph from my last post about my anchor words and how they dont seem to be working for me at the moment, this is what i wrote.

i was finding hew lens version of ho'oponopono really helpful processing tool. my interpretation of his teaching is to respond to any experience that isnt pure devine inspiration (which for me is 99.99% of the time) with addressing the data (meomeries etc) in the subconscious that are creating the experience you are having in the following way "thankyou data for this experience im having thats allowing me to see you and free you " "im sorry for ignoring you for so long, please forgive me" "i love you". The words are just words of course, but the meaning behind them seems a really strong catalyst for alchemy for me. especially the i love you part, (love to me is just complete acceptance, when i accept, i can distinguish my essence around the resonance i am accepting, and at the same time i can feel the resonance of the thing im accepting, when i hold this place, more often than not, the thing im accepting transmutes and i regain a small piece of me and become a bit more "fully functioning"

but my mind is hazy lately and i cant even remember this simple process of thankyou, im sorry, please forgive me, i love u. im too tired to do it, to hazy to find myself and as such the words dont have my energy behind them

chris you say "Can you handle the fact that you've released this entity from either someone else or the surroundings? But that it has gotten stuck within? Can you overcome any judgment or worry about that? Can you become totally accepting of its presence? Everyone has them up until Enlightenment."

im not freaking out about the fact that i "absorb" other peoples densities when i cant process quick enough to let go of the resonance i hold that they can "attach" to, what im frustrated about is that its having the effect of distracting me from being able to process this karma i want to process, as when i let entities attach to me, i get brainfog i completely lose my motivation/energy. i cant remember what im doing and i dont have the energy to process the karma. so its not that the entity is there that i cant accept, its that i cant get out of the brainfog place and my anchor words arent bringing me back.

I guess i will just have to accept that im not going to be able process this karma until ive addressed this entity, and i have to be ok with the fact i may have lost my chance to process the karma while i had the catalyst of "special timing" on my side... i will work to be ok with the sadness i feel that i may not have another chance to process that karma in this life. Then i will go over the questions you asked above to make sure im absolutely ok with what youve asked, then i will work with the entity, and THEN i will work with the karma i guess.

the entity is part of the furniture now and i cant find it. so i will do the ho'oponopono with the fog, this is quite tricky, because the fog is what makes it hard to remember the ho'oponopono. and my partner being around is so disorientating and really makes the fog worse and worse, i recognise i resent him alot for not giving me a break so i can get back ontop of the game. its such a tricky place because now im down, its like the door is open for all sorts of stuff to attach to this density im carrying - i think i know how the black hole works now. i do feel the black empty infinite nothingness inside my heart. i guess i will just go on with life and do what i can to reenergise when hes not around.

thats all for now :)