Many thanks for your help and comments. However I have not had any success in gaining insight into why this awful feeling is happening, I have not been able to feel a link with cruelty to animals as you suggested either. The feeling just washes over me like a wave and very often in recent weeks it has also been accompanied by a really horrible smell! I don't feel in a good place. I feel my life needs to change though I don't know how. Very conscious of my approaching 70th birthday in Oct, am quite fit though, still do sprint triathlons!I am becoming more aware of being on my own which I have not felt before (I have always lived on my own)
Last Friday one of my dearest dogs, Nels, died very suddenly, unexpectedly. The horrid feeling really worries me as I feel it is affecting everything. Please can you help me understand and resolve this ? Pauline