Dear Open,

If what you are saying is true (true for me) then I do actually trust that when the time is right, I will find the courage, or leap of faith to dive into the experience and will come out smiling at the other end!

However, I just have this little niggle concerning the unusual way in which I’ve been distracted each time from this intolerable memory and the accompanying wish to end my life. With other life traumas (the usual stuff people go through), sometimes it takes me quite a while, or least a day or two, to process things or let it go, and I feel that is the normal or average way of things. And these experiences are nowhere near as terrifying as the memory of being trapped and compressed. Also there is a definite feeling of being trapped and panicking. For example, it’s not like when I had past life regression years ago and recalled the terror of being buried alive – I processed that relatively quickly.

I’ve always had this little niggle that it isn’t Benevolence that is suppressing this particular memory, just a gut feeling. And recently I’ve started coming across articles about a ‘soul net.’ The various narratives can be summed up as a process whereby human souls are tricked into reincarnating by a false ‘light’, by archons or alien races etc. I’m wondering if my memory could be related to this, rather than the ‘total embodiment’ process you refer to?

Thank you, Wendy.