I don't post very often, and I'm not always the most organized writer, so forgive me. The reason I'm posting now, is an experience that has touched the depths of my soul. I wanted to share it in hopes that someone may have had a similar experience, or maybe some insight to mine. If not, then that's okay to :)

Last nights dream:
I was at the home of my employer with what co-worker. I don't know who the other person was, I couldn't see a face. ( I think now, it might be me) We were getting ready to settle in and put things away. They have a son, and he needed help with his shoes, first a type of sandal, but then I saw laces, couldn't decide what they were, but I helped him with them and played with him until his mother returned. He was very happy little boy.

She returned and thanked me for looking after him. She then showed us around and where to find what we needed to feel at home then she was gone. I vaguely remember her saying more, but I cannot recall it.

I remember seeing the Ocean outside the window, and next I'm on an over-sized airbed, floating. We had drifted away from the shore. The waves were really high, and I kept seeing glimpses of a light on the dock in and out from the waves. I turned my head to look behind me and could see a huge wave, I could also hear and feel rumbling below me and knew I was being pulled further and further away, and I couldn't stop it. I felt the air leaving the float, this is when I woke in the dream, I kept hollering above the sound for the person with me to wake up, and tried repeatedly to move my hand, to grab her arm and wake her. I stayed paralyzed through this part of the dream. I thought the waves would soak us and we'd drown, but, I felt no water, no sinking. Just the constant rise and fall of my body and sinking into a surreal peacefulness and calm, I stopped trying to move and talk. The ocean wasn't angry and there was no storm, just darkness of night, sound, and movement on the water. I do remember looking down at myself when I stopped trying to move, I was wearing a long linen gown, it wasn't quite white, an eggshell color. I don't recall anything else in the dream.

Feelings from the dream after waking: I made coffee and went to sit on my patio, I sat on the ground and watched the clouds going by and the sunrise. The wind was blowing the leaves on the trees, and I recalled the dream. I realized that the person I was with, was me. I was letting go of what I have come to trust and depend on, I just let go. My fear left and what remained was motion and vibration, both feeling and sound and for some reason, the linen gown and the boys shoes, I think I was supposed to know something about them, but it's lost. I think I'm ready. I could be over analyzing, but I feel refreshed and an uncontrollable pull for more. The meditation for Ascension of Gaia was perfect today, felt so right after the dream!

Thank you Openhand,
Janeen