It's a great video Open, thanks for sharing. I like the part where the zig zags lines are nuanced in the beginning but become less so as one move forwards. I can see myself going through something similar especially when I engage headfirst into things that interest me even when I don't have any idea where its leading to, if it will lead to something, or is it too late to engage in it.

I see this especially in the badminton game I'm so interested and pulled towards. Most of the guys who plays with me are interested in winning and making it right and thus achieving the momentary feeling of self confidence and boost. And that's only momenterly since it goes down the next minute when you make a mistake. But if we change the narrative from trying to win but instead being a better version of ourselves every single day, then all the energy which was previously allocated to prove oneself is available at our disposal for self mastery. On top of it, we are not now frustrated and beating ourselves for getting it wrong. Only recently I learned that my whole technique of playing is wrong or ineffective since it takes extra effort to exicute thus giving me shoulder pain. I'm looking to change it by starting from scratch. Since I'm doing it from the beginning I'm actually doin it very badly than I used to play. But that doesn't really matter as long as I'm moving forward in the right direction. It's not the winning that fullfills is bi the continuous growth.
But what I find challenging in this is that I'm being pulled towards others idea of how I'm supposed to be. And it takes practice to stay in my centre and act from my truth.