Hi Open,

I feel like I keep ascending and descending back, which is kinda discouraging. But I’m more familiar with the flow.

It's a state where I have less thoughts and I feel like I'm not exactly deciding my choices. I see them mentally first (sometimes it's just a subtle sense), then I act. And if I keep following it, it builds momentum.

Not being on the flow gives me a weird feeling now, and that horrible mental fog… I can't believe I lived like that for so many years!

I'm also realizing the amount of surrender that ascension requires. A LOT! My mind is addicted to creating stupid stories and attaching to negative events. I do feel more present than before, but I wish there was a way to really accelerate my growth or at least just make me keep going up the ladder. I feel as if in the past few days I lost a good portion of my progress :\

Thank you