Every word of this article speaks to me and reflects the process in me right now.

Since the beginning of 2022 I've set out to follow full time what I've perceived to be my soulful yearning. Yet everything I've set my mind to has produced little to no results in terms of incoming resources. I'm at the point where it is no longer sustainable - When my soul seems to guide me down a particular path I hit wall after wall in the 3D.

There are possibilities that could bring more resources, but none of them speak fully into my soul - they seem like compromises.

It's culminated in 2 back-to-back viruses that have left me physically exhausted and a seizing up of my neck and shoulders which is very painful - something to do with a feeling of not being able to support myself.

I'm rereading autobiography of a yogi right now and noticing how some of my habits are not in line with a constant following of soul.

This periods feels like a great reset within me. My system is breaking down on every level. I have little compass with which to follow whatever is emerging. It feels like a complete black hole of nothingness that I'm stepping into.

When I focus on the 3D I feel despair and hope, but my trust is wearing thin. When I go inside I perceive the ultimate okayness of pure being and know that even if I die, at this level all is well.

Thanks for the space to share,
Rich