I recently just shared this experience with a friend about processing the worst possible outcome of a situation.  I felt it could relate to her situation and a way to possibly start to process the experience that she is currently encountering.
First of all, I would like to mention that I'm noticing big transition points or choice points that are coming up for others and myself at this time in the shift.  It feels like a quickening, everything that's needing to come to the surface to be integrated is coming up for folks.  I know this to be true along my unfolding journey.
Almost 9 years ago, I was working a job that paid well and could have had a promising future in today's worldview of "success".  I had just bought a house with my wife, we had 1 baby girl and another baby on the way.  With each passing day, I would go to this job and I realized that I couldn't go on doing this job.  It didn't feel like it was coming from my mind either.  It was my soul trying to speak to me about what really wanted to come through.  I tried to quit that job 3 different times.  Always being pulled back in by my bosses and not wanting to face the fear I was experiencing when I had to tell my pregnant wife of this realization within.
I finally hit that point within where moving forward with this career was not an option at a soul level.
What brought me to this realization was when I had a conversation with my wife and 2 year old daughter at the dinner table, I broke down to her and shared how I was having suicide ideation while walking ground on roofs.  This really hit home with me because my younger sister committed suicide 10 years earlier.  It was time to commit to the path of my soul.  I didn't know what I was going to do but I knew I could no longer live this lie. 
I remember my wife telling me she wanted a man to support her financially.  I looked left and right and told her that I don't think that I'm that guy.  She wanted me to go to a therapist and get medicine, because this experience was manifesting dissonance and depression.  My boss at the time thought I was having a nervous breakdown and wanted me to admit myself to a psycheward.  I felt know one was listening to me or my soul at the time.  I learned real quick that I had to walk this path alone.
Before making my decision final and quitting my job, I had to process and mourn my relationship with my wife while still being in the relationship.  This was a truly difficult and powerful experience that I needed to go through. 
I would say that this was the beginning of me starting to choose my soul in this lifetime.  Something big shifted in me after moving through that experience.
As I progressively gained the courage and confidence to choose soul over the years, I find myself on the shores of great change and transformation.
A part of me faced the fear of losing my relationship with my wife all those years back.  Now this has become a reality, my relationship with my wife is dissolving.  I've felt so many different kinds of emotions over the past 7 months as I process and integrate this transition.  I'm able to use the philosophies and approaches I've learned through my work with Openhand to mediate through these big shifts.
I'm growing stronger and more resolute with each passing day.
I wanted to share this with the community as it relates to the article above.

With Love and Gratitude,


Chad