Sedona Stargate Pilgrimage

Thank you Open, this video is especially magical and meaningful. That music pulls strongly at my heart. The energies there are indeed powerful. Invokes a longing in me for sure. Beyond wanting to just soak up the magic of it, there's a call to be of service too. But I agree with you; it's time to heal and let go and evolve. I feel this on a personal level too, after a couple nights of meaningful dreams showed me who I could be if I let go of the old silliness. I was doing what I love, exploring. And even though I got lost and had many hurdles and barriers to overcome, I never lost that calm stillness, never got frazzled or frantic, it was all the same, an experience. A magical one at that, even during the challenges. This is who I want to become next. I no longer have an urge to run from the work or fall back into old patterns, because I now know what it's like beyond this place I've been hiding in so long. I'm afraid I will fall back but I know what I have to do now to get back to my center. I can't wait for this heart to fully open! I think of the urge to attend these retreats and pilgrimages and the old wall of "I don't have the money" clamps down, but now I'm challenging that. "Why not? Just why the heck not?!?" Maybe it's time to open myself up to miracles. Get creative. Anything can happen if I just get out of the way and allow it. Now it's time to learn patience and surrender to what wants to happen, without telling myself old stories about why I'm not ready or not deserving. All the silly dramas I let myself get stuck in cause my ego can't abide disrespect. Well then why did I create that disrespect? Why am I not respecting myself? All the imperfections, the darkness. A crow is sitting in the tree outside my window just as I write this (Kitty is having a field day!), speaking to this I think. "I'm your shadow and I need your love and acceptance." I feel like I can start forgiving others, and myself for all the things I couldnt before. I really never meant to hurt anyone, haven't I 'dragged myself on my knees through the desert' long enough, like in Meghan's poem? I don't think my twin flame wants that for me. My beloved. I feel like I may finally be ready to start coming back home. And I wouldn't be where I am right now without you Open, my gratitude gets deeper by the day. Thank you thank you thank you! BTW, reading Breakthrough again and I don't think I ever mentioned what a good writer and storyteller you are. Eloquent, and just flows so well. I can see myself on the horizon now, the me I always wanted to be but thought I couldn't be or didn't deserve. I can't wait to catch up with her!!!🙏💙barb