Dear Open ,

I am in hospital right now taking care with a baby diagnosed two months ago with a twisted gut . Seriously synchronistic. And since the last 2 days I have been wrestling with some unintegrated big shadow. I don't know what it is but I know it's FEAR. It's in the pit of my stomach . I am sleeping too much ,eating too much and generally feeling extremely disoriented. I think of Feeling as my Super power but this is something so deeply terrifying that I am experiencing gut wrenching FeAr like never before. I feel like I am picking up something in the field but can't put my finger on what it is .

Reflections welcome. I am Bowing away !

Megha