I have been searching for the article titled the same above. I couldn't find that and I ended up here.

I am holding a question right now, How can I heal the distorted masculine in me, who wants ro be seen, heard, appreciated, validated By others and to be perfect in every ways, without hurting the feminine aspects of me? By holding this question, I can see the different dynamics in it , But don't know how / have the courage to navigate through this.

1) the need to fix things and avoid hurt

2) the fear of being shattered

3) fear of expression- self doubting, self judging

The feminine in me is tired. Do not know the next step.Even if I say feminine, I truly doubt my energies. What am I? What is my TRUE energy? Am I an adjustment program?or am I being a fool of interventions here? Feels like I'm broken again. Lost. What's my base rhythm? I lost my ground and I'm wandering.

I don't know. I'm still at the beginning, the state of confusion.