Dear Open

The week prior to the eclipse season has been one such crunch point . It was so intense ,the energies coming through .I had to stand up for myself in some very intense conversations with my Mom . A lot of childhood pain was churned up as a result. Standing up for myself and my so called weirdness is hard for a (recovering) people pleaser like me .

The day after the eclipse something seems to have shifted . In a span of one day I had deeply illuminating conversations with two dear friends one of which I had been dreading . Something seems to be opening up after a long long time . I do have the worst cold ,but something seems to have eased up .

As I mentioned before ,I see to have found a deep gratitude in the circumstances of my life . Especially since I am now seeking to resolve nothing and be attentive to everything . Suddenly I will notice how I give up my energy to unconscious programs - pleasing those I am in intimate partnerships for example ,and then quickly take my energy back.

It's deeply fulfilling just watching and breathing and being with the messy unresolved truth .

Megha