For the past few days I've been experiencing a feeling of stagnancy everywhere especially in my relationship and daily life. It's like complete helplessness and lots of emotions welling up. But don't know the reasons behind. Sometimes It feels like I'm not being TRUE to myself. No orientations no motivations. What comes suddenly is seeing myself completely alone ( running away from relationships) and acting from there. It might be some random thought as nothing external seems to be pointing to the loneliness I'm looking for. A feeling that I've been boxed in relationship walls and i can see nothing outside of it. There are some expectations and needs from both sides. Questions like what am I learning from this strangleholds me.At the same time , my mind says, I was in box before this ,so what's the difference ? Also a feeling am I just going with the plan of other? The woman who came with her partner to the gathering we hosted reflected something inside me ro ask this question. Of course, I have full freedom and still I doubt my existence.