Hi Open,

I left an artist community I've been part for a while ,today. I saw the community splitting , to avoid that and to have a harmony (here togetherness, that was my distortion) I raised a concern which triggered people. They weren't willing to see the truth and they took it personally. I wrote a couple of messages which got interpreted in unprecedented ways. I already knew by raising a concern I'm putting myself in a state of juxtaposition. Yet I did because it felt the right thing to do. After writing my leaving message I bursted into tears. Leaving a community, being ostracized.. I'm still processing.

After leaving that group I could still see/ feel the energetic impacts of the messages I wrote. Those are keep playing in my head which made me aware of intervening energies. But I cant see the blind spot. It's twisting and changing. At one point it appear as sadness then shift into judgements and fears. I'm also started doubting whether it was the right thing to leave the group. I couldn't see the intervention while I was in action. So my expressions might have come distorted. I can take ownership of that but this self doubt.. I don't know how to break this loop. If I meditate and feel into my Torus, it goes away. Later I could see it's slithering back when I'm in actions. Then I breathe and ground myself. Both peeling away and incoming is happening.

Thank you

Soumya