Hi Megha,

Thankyou for your lovely support. I'm sure you are working to bend and infuse light into a very rigid system. I know how hospitals are here. I had teached in institutions for a while named 'matrix' and I could clearly see how the rigidity inside me related to the rigidity and the fear within the system and I was working to infuse beingness inside me which meant bending the rules from inside at times and it was wonderful to see many positive reflections in the outside. I'm not a city guy, yet I'm not used to this level of uncertainity and juggling the questions within my mind. It's challenging but also I know this is the right thing to do now. Right now I'm in a farm in karnataka and I have to interact with the down to earth local people here and I don't speak kannada! But yet I really connect with the lovely fellows more so than the intellectuals from the city bangalore. Stepping away from family and my usual ways has provided a lot of positive and challenging changes and I'm not planning to return atleast for a year as of now. But who can predict even that!

Keep shining your light dear Megha 🙂

Hi Open,

I knew their won't be a definite answer from you especially when I'm wanting it! Lol. I know it's more about the question than the answer. So that's what I'm doing, playing with the questions in my mind without getting sucked into it. And also hoping that I would get some pointers when the timing is right. When plenty of options are available within the landscape, is there's such a thing that most opportunity for self realization is within one of them. Or is that the ego asking the question. But I know even if there was something like that, there is no way for the mind to know and choose such a thing. Or are creating moment my moment irrespective of the choices. So that the choice doesn't matter.but the act of choosing matters.

So how did I chose this farm from numerous choices. There was a lot of intellectual efforting and frustrations created by the perfectionist in me and pulling in entities and nauseating. After a while a surrendering and a realizations that it doesnt really matter what I choose. Seeing that if I keep on waiting for the right choice which is guess is an illusion then I woudnt start at all, I booked the tickets to the nearest city for the available date. Even then there some confusion but this farm owner was available the exact date I was arriving which I thought was a clicking into place. I woudnt know what would have happened if I had opted the other one. That doesnt matter because wherever I'm there's plenty of reflections and possibility of growth. So ultimately its not about struggling within the choices. Seeing that it doesn't matter. Whatever it is, it's not worth striving for and pulling in entities. It's better to have an open mind and heart and welcome whatever that's coming my way with grace and acceptance.

Thankyou for your reflections.

Lots of love

Vimal