Hi Helen and Réka,

I can't seem to locate your last comments for the March 22nd full moon lunar eclipse. I read and appreciated them and went to post but then the Openhand site went down, at least for me. I pulled out my Dirt Devil vacuum for the solar new moon eclipse earlier on this month to clear out old, stale energies. That took me deeper into the darkness. I've felt such overwhelming emotions around this full moon lunar eclipse. The outer mirror, both individually and collectively this week, has left me lying in a heap of broken bits on the cold floor. I broke down and sobbed one morning this week, feeling like I can't take anymore, so tired of all the struggle. It feels as though I've been swept out to sea on the darkest, blackest night without even the moon to light my way. I'm exhausted from thrashing about, fighting to stay afloat. I lie back and float on the waves, up and down, up and down, no resistance. I don't know where I am or where I'm going under this moonless sky. I can't see a thing. There's just no point in searching out there anymore for the light. Even the stars are shrouded in dark clouds. It's all in here. I might drown out here alone on this vast ocean. I might not. It doesn't seem to matter. C'est la vie. A white flag flies above my door. There's peace in surrender.

x Cathy