Dear Friends.

Looking at what is happening to Gaia from the wider, cosmic perspective, presented in the video, opened up my consciousness. I can’t see well when I’m too zoomed in. I was very contracted around Gaia’s ascension and the “fate” of humanity and it was choking my energy very much. It seemed I witnessed this before and felt I had to resist and somehow stop it this time. I feel I understand what is happening enough now to drop some major attachments and flow with Gaia as we self realize together. There is no right nor wrong, just like there is nothing to forgive and no one needs to be saved. Open, you said:

“Those that are not ready will be helped out by the Angelic Realm.”

Thank you so much for these words! They helped me to let go even more. You see, I have very hard time and huge guilt about leaving others behind. I felt into it and how it was splitting me into two, literally... not seeing other way ... panic... innocent beings torn apart... horrible suffering... destruction... my heart hurts so much... nausea ... soften... open the door. My GOD, this is a surprise and it is some massive karma. I see it is one of the reasons I'm here now. It's not over, but I'm feeling much lighter...

My energy is flowing now and I feel my soul joining in with a larger current. There is a Long Tide swelling up in the ether. It is ancient and it is home. It's been humming within my being since my very beginning. It’s easier to connect to it now, because I am lighter. The Tide flows through me now and I am flowing through it. I feel other's consciousness within me and we permeate one another with recognition. I almost can’t take this much love!… We are like millions different colours of paint mixing together. My God, what a beautiful mix this is! How do I even explain this without the notion of separation? I do not have words, I’m afraid.

There is some “freaky” stuff that is happening to me and I want to share it with those who are reading this. You see, I promised myself to accept whatever “weird stuff” happens and I am doing my best, even though the thoughts about a brain tumour resurface from time to time. It will help me if I open up about it here, even if nobody resonates, so thank you very much for being here and hearing me and the energy of this forum feels very soothing to me now...
1. I feel there is another presence within my being, I am two in one now. I try to stay soft with the fact that I now speak “we” instead of “I” sometimes. It happens when I’m in that very connected-with-myself space. I’m very grateful for the people that witnessed it and respected this expression. It feels very natural when I say that and I do not feel a stranger within myself, or that I'm channelling other beings. It is me, except there are 2 of me. Perhaps it is the feminine and the masculine (twin flame) reunited?
2. In the last week I feel my brain physically stretching/bulging up, it seems to be pressing against the skull sometimes, which gives me headaches. Some neurological action is taking place and when I close my eyes, my eyeballs often move frantically in all directions.

In general I manage to appear reasonably normal and my family and friends are not too concerned. They know that sometimes I just need to leave the room and be alone. Then, I just get out of the way, as well as I can, and let the energy flow through. The energy does things within my brain and heart. Sometimes it is uncomfortable, but softening helps.
Open, you asked “How can you be so constrained physically, and yet not be constrained as a soul?” I’m still pondering this. Before you wrote this, I had quite a few synchronicities telling me “go beyond the physical”. Now, it changed to “transcend and transmute”, so the answer evolves and I'd like to leave it open and continue this exploration.

I see there are others freeing themselves up from the guilt of not feeling Gaia is their Mother. It makes me happy to see us all dropping more preconceptions and attachments. How awesome you all are!

Open, big thanks to you for all your incredible work, for being here for us and helping us see. We see You.

M.