I also like to thank you M for your sharings! You show all you've been going through so honestly. That's inspiring for me because I don't like to show myself to the world that easily. It's incredible for me to hear what the above exchange triggered in you. And it makes a real difference when the mind is easing into the passenger seat; when you can trust that what's happening to you is all laid out by the big You. This is were I still struggle. I tend to always want to understand everything that's happening to me during the spiritual process. But at this point it becomes undo-able because I'm entering such unknown terrain that my mind can't make the intellectual ends meet anymore. I even have trouble deciphering my dreams lately. I tell myself more and more: get out of the way so your enlightenment can unfold naturally. I know it''ll happen anyway but I guess it's just a matter of how I choose it to happen.