Dear Cathy,
I feel your anguish.
You said:
“How do I NOT appease a despot who persecutes the vulnerable?” – the other candidate has already part took in killing and misplacing hundreds of thousands of people, so there is never been a choice, really. This system is not fixable, Cathy. But something else longs to be uncovered…

You said:
“How do I NOT comply with a misaligned flow? How do I help to realign a distorted flow of hate to one of love, respect, and compassion for all life?” – how else other than diving right into the hate current, feeling what is it doing to you, to others? Meet it, touch it, let it permeate you. You will discover that in all this you are still You. Perhaps you will momentarily fall apart, vanish as you are in the current configuration? That’s ok. Would you be so brave and merge with your own contractions and transmute them? You said you were working with fear, is there anything else that is calling for your attention? It is usually easy to spot as that thing we are trying hard to fix on the outside. You know it well, when you transform the tightness within yourself, it will be honoured and felt deeply by all. For you are a part of the collective consciousness and we are a part of yours.

I picked up on something in your post that I relate to: What does it mean to be a hero for you, Cathy? Is there a guilt that you were not heroic enough, that you didn’t stood up when needed? As long as you are at the shore pointing at the guilty one, not much can get transmuted, the hate will flow as it flows and the capacity to love will remain under-utilized.

M.