The Inner Journey [5D Ascension Series]

This is a very lovely video, I feel immersed in it, the vibe is so warm and soothing and feels like home. It feels like being held with unconditionally loving arms. I felt some warmth in the higher heart while watching. I just love it. The points speak directly to the stuff I've been creating and struggling through. It helps so much to know I can transform it, and have been working on pulling my attention away from the outer blaming and bringing it to where it feels it needs to be within me. Yesterday the same old stuff coming at me and I felt the old frustration and anger boiling up but then immediately started to breathe into the 3rd chakra where i was feeling tightness, and the anger subsided almost immediately. I also noticed when I did this the projections lessened. The recent exchange has helped too. Would that we could have one every week! I'm a big believer that my energy creates the outer around me, and that there are those who feed off the reactions they create (that I created). I'm not interested in being someone's meal anymore, but still feel chagrin that i not only created it but that I allowed it in the first place. The same old self-pity and victim mentality creeps in again. But it feels an ego thing, like my pride has been damaged by being seen as weak and that people think they can get the better of me. Maybe I need to embrace my vulnerability and not see it as a weakness? But now it feels as though the vulnerability is really only my belief that I'm weak and powerless, not that i actually am. It's a choice. I can't feel bad if i don't let them make me feel bad. And I've been proving that to myself. It's old stuff going all the way back to my childhood so i see it now, thanks to OH, as my soul wanting to free myself from it, and that makes it feel like an opportunity now instead of a prison and it feels exciting to know that i can move beyond these impairments. That i can reclaim the better part of me. Shifting from blame to inner inquiry and breathing, and now the dragon breath, is already making a difference. 'Why did I create this?' is a great mantra when in the middle of outer ructions. It's been really important too to stop being hard on and blaming myself. Every time I want to curl up in shame and guilt and regret and beat myself up for my past mistakes, I remind myself I was only doing what i thought was right or what I needed at the time from that level of consciousness and distorted thinking, and that I never intended the outcomes. It has been making a difference but still a long road ahead. "Own your shit!" 😆Thank you for these videos Open and Asya, they are islands of love in a sea of turmoil, and I can't wait to see more! Love, Barb