I'm currently in Gateway 2 - living in a mix of mind and heart based choices.
When I meditate, I can easily reconnect with myself and feel the warmth of my heart. But I'm finding it difficult to keep my presence when I'm with people and I have to engage in a conversation, for example. After a few minutes, I realize I left my center and I'm living more in my personality, with mind-based thoughts and opinions. Otherwise, if I try to come back to the center, I become too quiet and people ask me if I'm upset.
Do I have to 'learn' to keep my focus split in these experiences? Or should I just behave in a way that is normal for me, given my current level of spiritual growth?