Divinicus 25: Preparing For The Golden Age

I have very few words that could adequately describe the experience of Divinicus 💖🌀🌟

It has to be felt to be seen and real-eyes-ed 💪🏼💖🙏🏼

My eternal gratitude to everyone on the Team across all dimensions 🌀🙏🏼

Thank you Open and all Openhanders 🙏🏼 Much love to All 💖🌟

What an extraordinary time spent tucked in the embrace of Snowdonia. Much thanks to Open, Tilly, Joy, Thomas and all who participated in this retreat. Once again, a super supported, safe place is created to open up, let go, deeply express and emerge into a new found space of being. That new space is and always has been me. This experience has opened me up to a new level of contentment and acceptance with what is around me and given me a new sense of courage to embrace the urge to move forward. The Kriya meditation we learned has provided a space within me to process and release all the creepy things that crawl and tension in my field with a new found neutrality. Turns out the creepies are grateful too. Positively astounding. I cant wait to read more about the meditation in the new book coming out in August! Thank you again and I look forward to the next gathering!💥

I found this artist this morning while out on my walk. to me, the movement of the music encourages the sense of an extraordinary journey. Gitty and unknown, apprehensive yet I continue moving forward. ❤️

On the train from Bangor to Manchester I could increasingly feel society as an incoming pressure pushing me down. I never felt it in that way before so it is now something I can work with.

Especially on Manchester Airport in the waiting area, for the first time, I noticed the world as being inside me instead of me being in it. A curious sensation. I was sitting lotus with intertwined fingers, except thumbs and index extended and touching, bag next to me with my hat on top of it, and my little duckie on top of that. The few people who noticed and threw an awkward look my way made me think: oh look, someone who needs to see this. A large chunk of the usual resistance versus being noticed has disappeared.

Making my way back home without glasses (which didn't turn out to be anywhere in my baggage) made me go into the feeling sense more than the visual sense. On the plane ride back home, looking out the window a moment of revelation happened and I noticed how not wearing glasses allows me to relax when I focus too much; when the 'outside world' is too clear I should focus to the inner. Each time this sensation has been experienced so far, it led to a valuable insight.

The emotional outburst set in motion by the sweat lodge has created a lot of inner stillness but I also notice barriers I hadn't noticed before. So for that also, it is now something I can work with.

Last night I asked myself what would happen if I still the mind completely. A few seconds later, my largest backpack which I hadn't touched for hours fell over. So I will drop a lot of baggage, got it.

I have found a number of places where I just felt to lean against a tree or simply sit or stand and meditate. Two of these places were along a busy road. It is no longer a factor I take into consideration, a testament to the inner changes that have happened.

On the second day of fasting my third eye was very active, though I find it difficult to say how much the fasting contributed to that and how much was due to acclimatisation to the group energies and/or Cae Mabon site. I had an active weekend but starting today the plan is to stay on one meal per 48 hours for a while to see how this develops. I will simultaneously explore the newfound sensitivity to what I will call historic information for now (what I sensed about events when looking at the mountains and the lake, and felt inside the ruined houses scattered around the place; by the way seeing the ocean on the way back in the train brought an overpowering and awesome sense of ancientness with it!)

Purple lightning dragon, who are you? There is still a distance, I feel like it can be compared to me not being there yet. Perhaps communication is not necessary, simply presence.

Hi OHComm 💖🙏🏼

Lastnight after an intense couple of soul work days post Divinicus, I had made some magic in the kitchen to satisfy, then felt to watch a movie I’d watched over 25 years ago.

It seemed to be inspired by the experience at Cae Mabon, although this time I was watching with eyes that have a completely new and shifted perspective.

I saw the sheer beauty in the interplay between the 4 family members. The push and pull between the energies of the soul and that of the intervention. The backdrop is Montana mountains, stunning 💕🌀🏞️

‘A River Runs Through It’

1992 Brad Pitt & Tom Skerritt

Much love,

Karen 🐬💕🙏🏼

Hi Open,

Yes, karma has been activating for me pretty much as soon as the retreat started but today in particular it’s been off the charts.

Sat in my garden on my lunch break I felt a pull to look at a neighbour’s house where their roof aerial jumped out. I’ve seen it hundreds of times but today it seemed to represent a crucifix. That then led to a releasing of some karma around the crucifixion. I was pretty deep into the feelings which came in waves, and I felt like they weren’t going to stop, when I heard a voice in my head which told me to go smell the roses in my garden. This grounded me almost instantly.

I did the bow which has settled the energy now. Interesting it started raining as I was doing the now which felt as though I was being helped to cleanse, and the sun came straight back out again after I’d finished!

I don’t feel like the voice was intervention but because it had the effect of taking me out of the deep despair I was in, I wondered if you had any insights.

Thank you 🙏

Nikki

Hi Open & OH,

I went through an intense panic- heavy hearted feeling today. It felt like activation of some buried karma. A simple conversation in a community forum triggered me so deeply that my whole body felt weak. It was as if I had been wrong the whole time, and I had served people believing I was doing the right thing. It was shattering.
The first image that came to mind was everyone questioning my credibility and turning against me—like throwing stones. It was difficult to sit with.
When I prepared myself to receive the stones by surrendering, it started softening. Then came a veil of sadness, followed by a sense of humbleness—like I am nothing. Still, the impact (layers) remains in my field. I think it will take time.

Thank you

Soumya🙏

It's been a wild week. My awareness was drawn to my chakra sometimes referred to as the mouth of God. When I started exploring the whole area felt super congested, tight, and there was lots of pressure in my whole head. I could feel how different parts of my brain and head had been limited and shut down by being tethered to the mog chakra and it felt like my skull needed to be taken off, the connection to my spine adjusted and then my head put back on. It feels like the area was manipulated and then the manipulation anchored with some type of technology. At least in me this manipulation enables a lot of limiting beliefs to take hold. It seems like the manipultion was done around the time the hybridization of original humans happened. Apparently I had to reach a level of purification and inner work before I could even feel what was going on. I've been working with it all week with limited success so today I asked for assistance from the Orions, Acturians and Anu. I could feel my brain being spun around inside my head. Now everything feels lighter and more open but there's still some tightness so either I need to integrate or there's more I need to do or both. Crazy, I know.

Hi Open,

I wanted to add this here. Since the whole experience is still a blur of mostly lost time and overlapping experiences which my mind cannot even put into any perspective, I do remember feeling a lot of negative emotions. To be clear this is not the way I looked at it before and look at it now. It is a curious sensation which feels to me like active engagement with intervention energies, but the sensation completely contradicts the way I engaged the experience as I look back on it. Perhaps this is a main reason why my mind blocked out virtually all of the experience; perhaps there is simply no applicable frame of reference for the mind to use.

I am currently inquiring the possibility that the experience brought me back to situations where I was actively engaging with intervention energies, probably knowing exactly what I was doing and thus processed through guilt and shame of being the instigator rather than the victim. Given this description and your view on the matter at the time, I would appreciate your reflection.

This is not to paint a negative picture! The experience was quite positive, I am just trying to make sense of the memories.

As I read about the various reflections about identity and listen to the YouTube extract you provided, the synchronicity of it makes me smile. My musings the last several weeks have been precisely about identity (and the break down of it).

As I am deepening my dedication to a regular yoga practice, I am confronted with the usual « set your intention for your practice » and decide to use it to bring focus to areas I feel require attention. So I start initially with self love, as I feel this will help soften my inner dialogue and ego’s grip. For a few days, I focus on bringing myself love, not just during yoga but in my everyday actions.

As self love starts to trickle in however, I realize how limiting that is and then evolve to the wider « I am love ». As I carry this around with me again for a while, it also starts to feel limiting.

And as we near the Divinicus retreat, I reflect back on my experience in Cae Mabon last year and particularly on that final round in the sweat lodge where I felt « I am Presence ». This leads me to focus on incarnating this Presence. I start wondering: What is this Presence? As I position myself as the Observer, the question comes: Who is this Observer? And so I turn my attention into the Observer, instead of from the Observer out. It feels like a wave of consciousness, a movement. The centre of the torus? I deepen into this wave, until I reach what I understand to be Presence. But it is not a « Void of Nothingness ». It is colorless, shapeless, without identity, but there are still currents and variations in density within it. There is still potential. Infinite potential?

Am I correct in thinking that this zone of infinite potential is in fact the shores of the void, its event horizon and maybe I have yet to fully experience the perfect stillness of absolute Nothingness?

Then if you fully step into the Void where nothing exists, how do you not stay there infinitely? What it is that pulls you out of it since there can be nothing in it, no potential, no movement?

Many thanks and much love to everyone!

Yesterday I went into the forest for a day of meditation, inspired by the divinicus week. There were some physical things to deal with, for example it was really cold, but that's not what I want to share here.

After a couple of hours, my thoughts took me to a remembrance of a guided meditation into the underworld I took part in around 17 years ago. There we met a guardian of the underworld which my mind interpreted as a large, demonic spider. I was taken very quickly back into that experience, softening into any fear. At this point the spider started trying to eat me - again, I softened as much as I could and equalised. Suddenly I opened my eyes in this world - the spider was possessing me. I felt like I was a spider, having the cravings, energetic and almost physical body of one. It deeply disturbed me - as I animated and expressed myself as a spider, I also began to whimper.

Working with it I had to again soften and equalise while breathing my essence and human form through my body. Eventually the experience dissipated. In the time since I've sometimes felt a similar feeling trying to take over me, especially when seeing spiders, though it no longer has the power to possess me.

It seemed like some kind of trans-humanistic karma, though it seemed mostly organic rather than mechanic. But the way it happened - it felt like a possession. I wonder if you have insight Open - what do you pick up? Any way to work through this more? Should I allow it again as it's clearly still within my field, or continue to boundary the experience?

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Something else unrelated which happened last week that I would like to share.

I had a rather disturbing dream - I was staying somewhere with my father and brother (my father is now deceased and my brother was also younger in the dream). I noticed lots of broken glass on the floor of the kitchen. I was not afraid of touching it or stepping on it, but was a little annoyed that nobody had cleaned it up yet. Then I heard a wail of anguish from where my brother had been sleeping. My father pulled him out of the room and I noticed that there was a hole in my brother's face where his eyes should have been. As he woke up he felt his face and expressed the obvious shock, confusion and grief someone would feel having just discovered their eyes had disappeared. I felt his emotions and felt for him - it was very painful and I held him close. Then I woke up.

Later that day I went for a walk and discovered a dead crow on the path. It seemed very synchronistic, like one was connected to the other. It took me some days to figure out a meaning to the events. Recently, I have stopped letting compassion for people's pain dictate the way I respond to them if that pain comes from a blindness - something they aren't willing to see. Whereas before I would be drawn into their reality, now I'm not - while remaining compassionate I'm not drawn in. It seemed the dream and dead crow were a confirmation of the death of that pattern.

Though I'm certainly open to any other interpretations if you feel to offer them :-)

Wishing all on the divinicus week a powerful and magical time!

Rich

Hi Open,

The enquiry around persecution and being killed off for expressing my authentic self is one that has come up for me before and I feel I have had multiple lifetimes where this played out. I realised I was scared to be the authenic me as that fear was palpable, and still is. Even in this life when expressing myself, I have been to some degree ostracised by previous work colleagues (my then-community) and my views and opinions stamped on by my own family. This conditioning has led me to hide my real self in an effort to fit in, but then you forget who you really are. I have started to express myself more since starting this work but feel I have a long way to go in expressing authenticity and find that I aquiesce all too easily.

Just yesterday I was with a family member who made an unwanted suggestion to which I immediately responded in an authentic way. You are right - people don't like it! They erupted, blaming me for the interaction that had just transpired. I was able to stay in my own power and the situation didn't affect my energy at all, it seemed like water of a duck's back but later I found myself aquiescing, agreeing with things they said with some kind of automation on my part (so not fully conscious) and then later I massively over-indulged on sweet treats. I just couldn't stop eating them and kept going back for more until the whole box was gone. I felt to share the food aspect as I feel it may have been part of the impact of the earlier encounter, or even connected with you guys fasting on retreat.

The work you are doing is certainly being felt by other openhanders. I have been getting karmic activations and stirrings, and in fact, just before you started the retreat I burst into tears for no apparent reason, accompanied with a feeling of agitation (which sometimes indicates intervention energies for me) and a moving pain in the sacral. I worked into it, did the bow but still felt a degree of agitation. However, I then saw in meditation a very old wooden shuttered window with a latch on it. I lifted the latch and opened the two shutters and a huge amount of very powerful light came through in waves. It was an incredibly powerful experience.

With love and an open heart for reflections

Nikki 🙏