One of the things I like about travelling is that I get a lot more signs and synchronicties. One thing I noticed is signs pointing in different direction. To give an example I got committed to go to this yoga retreat centre run by a guy called Phil. After booking my tickets I saw the guys name pronounced in a catching way in a movie, so I thought thats a sign that I'm moving in the right direction. But I also got an intuition of very controlling energy coming from the place supported by some synchronicties but I decided to follow the initial impulse. But after reaching there it turned out my intuition was spot on as the guy and the place was very controlling and rigid. He exactly resembled like the guy from the movie whiplash so you can imagine. I have seen enough freedom and flexibility to be put into such a place so it became obvious within minutes that I have to leave. Now I was stranded(not exactly by my choice) on the middle of the road with no plan B and absolutely uncertain of what to do. It's really fascinating to observe help coming out of nowhere when I take a step from that space and I think it doesnt matter if we make the right move or not. So why did I see signs pointing in different direction. I'm learning it the hard way to trust the intuitions. When going into the pain I had many realizations that the guy was a reflection of self judgement of not having or being enough, not having anything to show for myself and thus an overpowering of the masculine to get things done. I also tend to lean on to people for support because of this lack of trust. Mixed with the need to belong its a painful combination. But compared to being at home, I'm more alive and aware of myself and the surrounding because things are not too certain and it's necessary I be this way. I can't expect it to be the same as yesterday.
Another one is that of signs literally telling what to do. To give an example I got this 2 consecutive signs to change direction but I had already planned it one way and I just avoided the signs as my imagination. It turns out I missed my train and I once again got stranded and went it to negativity but I pulled myself up and stepped into the next obvious choice and the universe had much better way of meeting my objective. There was not so much clicking or an 'aaha' feeling with those. How can I really say if its really my imagination or its really universe coming up with support.
I was walking through road having faced some challenges thinking to myself that maybe I should head back home and search for some job so that I could better support myself and I overheard a conversation between 2 gentleman. One was literally saying to another " You can get a job anytime you want but this is a onetime experience" or something along those lines. Amazing. I wonder how can anyone or how is it possible to shape the 3D world in this way. Who does this?