Vimalfreesoul - being the flow

I spent the last several days camping in a forest above a mountain with a view of the city below. I suppose the motivation for having this experience was curiosity—how does my energy feel away from human matrix programming? Will I be able to connect much more strongly with other multidimensional energies?

I realized in society, we are continuously reconfirmed as an identity—a person with a name, gender, and so on. It's only natural that we've learned to accept and identify with this. But I was receiving a different reflection in the forest. There was no one there to confirm the identity. The forest mother, with all her love, does not need me to be her son! As a result, I was able to get closer to my true self. I had to investigate several aspects of this identity consciousness. Identification with one's gender is significant. In my childhood, I was considered a boy, and in my adolescence, I was labeled a man. Yes, in this incarnation, but what about the previous times when I was a woman or a girl?

There was no shortage of reptilian or BS reflected in the forest. I had made an affiliation with these energies due to the above identifications. Of course, the energies are just there to serve this identity. That's their purpose! The reptilian was 'earning' me respect, worthiness, power, and admiration, among other things. Where these identifications with the masculine were present, letting go is regarded as a sign of weakness. Is it necessary for the "One" in me to bear them in order to gain such external validation? After several illuminations, I could make peace with the identity and this interfering consciousness, which was serving a common purpose—bringing unconsciousness to light. As the judgments dissolved, I witnessed that these energies were much more willing to leave my field and go where they belonged.

A piece from my tent had separated - green snake?

On the first day, I tried to go to the mountain with a few fellow Openhanders, but there was a strong response from Gaia. On the way, a tree uprooted and crashed down, missing us by an inch. It was simple to conclude that I was not destined to carry out my intentions, and it also fed some anxiety I had been harboring. One of the main concerns was that I would get attacked by some wild animal. However, upon deeper inquiry, it catalyzed some loosening of rigidity surrounding the entire notion of moving and meditating for a few days. After that, it became more of a curiosity play and flow in action. 

I sense there are intervention energies that can easily hijack the soul Impulses to fit us within their own agendas and we need to be constantly inquiring about the right action. The impulse to go was still pretty strong. I also felt strong supportive energy from Gaia and Forest mother. - a sense of love, protection, and guidance. I knew I would be looked after.

I actually became sick on the first day by trying to jam everything according to my mind's perspective. I had to learn to let go and be okay with a bit of chaos and a lot of uncertainty. But, as I imagined, as the fever subsided on the second day, the connection with the elements took center stage. I was enjoying Gaia's loving support and nurture, unconditionally accepting my mistakes, and caring wholeheartedly. That's what I felt in my heart. Many distinct layers of karma were activated, including failure, abandonment, annihilation, perfection, and the burden of responsibility. I guess the reason I'm still here!

It was poignant that the spot where I used to sit for meditation was surrounded by four trees connected by three metal cables to a larger tree. Humans' ignorance in treating this sentient life as if it were a piece of wood post! The large tree on the cliff edge appeared to be ready to leap off at any time. The first and second wires had weakened, but the third wire remained rather strong. This, I believe, refers to being related to karma primarily through the mental plane.

Away from the hold of the matrix, I was seeing more visions than ever. One of the visions in a meditation appeared significant. I witnessed the slope collapse, with trees falling on both sides, yet a bridge had been created in the center. Humanity is being invited to cross the bridge. However, the bridge eventually became a tunnel through which souls traveled at the speed of light. I'm curious if this possibly symbolizes the soul harvesting that can occur when souls are drawn into a 4D collective energy? This has been a recent inquiry I have been having.

I did an experiment on the last full moon while sitting beside the fire. I shifted between connecting with Gaia and the moon's energy. I did this several times to make sure I was not projecting my beliefs onto the feelings. I guess my mind still needs this trial and error to fully trust my feelings. But the result was unequivocal. Every time Gaia came to my consciousness, my heart would open to expansive loving energy in the heart, but the moon would contract me down, especially in the sacrum and the third eye! I assume we carry these impacts into our field most of the time without realizing it.

I also carried out another experiment. I asked my body if I felt like eating something specific at this moment, and it would constrict down in the sacrum. When I thought about fasting, my body would respond by opening up. This is something I will do my best to remember, especially when presented with difficult choices. I could simply ask my heart and body! I wondered if I could live like this forever, just connecting with Gaia and getting away from the program, but the fire elemental had a different message, emphasizing that being in the thick of it and bringing my light to illuminate the relationships with others is when the higher self comes down to meet the lower!

It's fascinating how being away from distractions such as social media can elevate consciousness, and then many things in nature can speak to our soul. I'm leaving my tent and other equipment here as I go down tomorrow so that I can come back and spend a few more days. Perhaps the forest has more messages for me?

Vimal 
 

Dear Soul family, here is a new song and video - I'm free. I worked on it with much passion and patience. For me what really gets me moving is the dance of different soul ray harmonics in the creative process. There is the ray 1 of moving towards an objective with passion but we also need to gear shift to surrendering and letting go of the objective otherwise the passion becomes distorted. There is also the magic where we can witness the divine guidance and things clicking into the place. Like for example some of the visuals where shot without any prior intention but wanted to fit in to the song effortlessly. 

Honestly, many times during the video-making process I thought I was not free at all but also at times the song reminded me to transcend my own fears and connect with this freedom.

I was also reminded that it's easy to feel and believe we are free when everything is flowing well and when we are feeling the joy of existence. But how can we find freedom even through the tough and challenging experiences?  After writing the song, I thought, perhaps the song should be "I'm is free" because the real freedom is found in the "I'm" by transcending the limiting identity and its beliefs. 

I would like to thank Soumya, who has assisted with the camera and did a marvelous job. I recorded this into my camera mic, so I would recommend using headphones otherwise the sound would likely distort. Let me know what you think about the video.

Much love 

Vimal 

Dear Openhand family,

I dedicate this song for the divinity in all of us. These videos were shot in Himachal Pradesh. - Spiti valley and Bir village. Hope you enjoy it.

Much love

Vimal 

As the shift accelerates and I'm naturally connecting with higher-dimensional energies, there's so much more energy wanting to move through me. But what I find is that It can get a bit frustrating as this energy still has to be channeled through this narrow pipe of a physical body. It's hitting many layers of density inside, especially in the lower chakras. There is a feeling of being trapped in this dense emotional body while the soul in me is yearning for a higher existence and authentic expression.

Lately, I have been expressing these energies a lot through movement, sometimes dancing to powerful, emotive, high-energy songs or even screaming the energy out at times. Our landlords gifted us a "higher shelf" for the kitchen yesterday but instead wanted to keep some of their stuff in a box in one of our rooms. Space is being created in the physical and emotional to receive more information from the external, which in turn is opening up the higher paradigm.

Today, after such a process, I couldn't sit still in my room and wanted to hike through the nearby forest to the waterfall and later take a dip in it. I stopped on the way to a restaurant to grab a bite. There was an inquiry in mind about support and trust that needed some clarity. So I asked, "Show me," to the universe. Immediately I saw a guy wearing a t-shirt with a picture of Buddha on it, and he was carrying a leaning rest pad from a chair. That seemed like a direct reflection. I think I'm the monk still carrying the perspective of external support. But what I really wanted was to know how to break this internal chain. The lady near me touched the pink-colored top hanging on the ceiling on her way out, showing the presence of the 'internal mother' or Quan yin energy, which is the real source of support and love.

I had to halt my bike on the way to the forest because there was work going on and a JCB was removing large rocks from the road. I observed a man using a chisel to smash these rocks. I suppose these rocks are what I carry about in my emotional body, and I'm breaking them down one at a time. I parked my bike there and walked the rest of the way to the forest and beyond.

The forest was stunningly gorgeous, especially with the stream close by. I saw a green-colored citadel singing her song, and I paused and looked at her. Then it occurred to me, that I was supposed to sit and sing with her. As we both sang together, a primitive sound from my belly and upwards, I could feel the dense emotions dissipating and higher harmony and peace being restored. At this point, the citadel started climbing upward, signaling that the job was complete and I could ascend once more through the forest path. I felt an incredible sense of gratitude for this life and being able to connect with Mother Earth like this.

It still took me at least an hour to sit near the waterfall, contemplating whether to jump in or not. Finally, I had the courage to stand under the icy Himalayan water. I could feel every cell in my body screaming for release and comfort. Nevertheless, I persisted through the pain and kept softening the internal reaction. If I put words to the pain, it would translate to "I'm not good enough". This is perhaps a karmic imprint of carrying the burden of the mission of being a lightworker, bringing light into myself and the world. That is what the recent synchronicities were pointing to. A few minutes later, the pain subsided, and I was washed over with relief and humility. "I don't have to carry this weight. The flow will manage that. All I need is to trust, surrender, and merge with the flow".

Vimal 

Oh my divine
I bow to you
Oh grand design
I bow to you

Listen listen to me now
I'm in you and you in me
Seek and you shall find
The answers within your mind
I'm all around
Within every eyes and every smile
I'm all around
Within the clouds and a grain of sand

Let go and open your mind
And remember to be kind
To yourself and others alike
You are in me and I'm in you

Oh little child
I bow to you
Oh gracious kind
I bow to you

Vimal 

Here's a simple perspective on being a lightworker. What does it mean for you ? 

I bow down to you , all facilitators and lightworkers in the shift ,everyone who is diligently looking within themselves and courageous enough to express truthfully into the world.  We are at the right place at the right time! 

Vimal 

Around two years before River and I went to a waterfall during our nomadic journey. We met this beautiful little bird who reflected us the freedom we yearned to embody in our heart. Soon the yearning turned into a song - a conversation with the bird.

The little bird is soaring
Far far away from its home
The little bird is soaring

Hey bird where are you off to ? 

The little bird is soaring 

Dusk had fallen
The Sun had set
The Sky turned golden
The little bird has begun to fly.

The little bird is soaring 

I'm not looking for a place to build a nest.
I'm neither looking for a mate
This journey itself is my home
This road itself is my destination

The little bird is soaring

Vimal 

Thankyou Andy and Sherri for your uplifting comments. I'm glad it was inspiring. 

Much love ❤

Vimal 🙏

Dear Openhand community,

I have been working on a song and music video for the last couple of weeks. I would like to release it here. I have named it "Emerge" as it is inspired by my own process of dealing with shadow and density and emerging into the light through them, which I am sure everyone here can relate to.

It has been an exciting and challenging process of learning and relearning—writing, arranging, and producing the song on my own computer. A few days before, I found a couple of footage from Cottonbro Studio and weaved them into a music video. I hope you find it inspiring. Please remember to use headphones.

Much love 

Vimal 

The mind is a problem solving mechanism. Mostly it's all it can concentrate, the supposedly different problems in life and how to solve it and move forward in life. I think this is the matrix way of looking at life which is deeply conditioned in the brain.

How to work with it? 

One reflection that came through a session I had is to be able to hold the unresolved problem in the mind without thinking of the solution. I think when we are focused on the problem, then we are coming from a sense of lack rather than the soul. To articulate this in Openhand fashion.. 

Notice the boulders but focus on the path of light.

The above realisation once again came in through the interaction. Trust is the key here. To be able to trust that if I just let go the need to know the answers, understand, articulate and find the solutions but be in the path of light through it, then the light will find a way through it in a way which the mind couldn't expect. This is the art of surrender but active participation in life. 

So each problem, each mishaps, every challenges becomes an opportunity for a deeper surrender and coming home. Only place that makes any sense.

I think being able to be grateful for the positive things in life is a game changer. Being able to appreciate the beauty of mother earth, the loved ones, being able to walk, breathe, eat, smell a flower. Then there is also the gratitude for the challenges in life because they help us grow and evolve and appreciate more of the simple things in life! 

Vimal 🙏

I'd been pretty busy for the past week because I'd been attending a terrestrial Bhuddist retreat. This is the first terrestrial retreat I've attended in the last 9 years of my spiritual journey. It had been a lovely and alchemical few days. I've noticed how being close to a family of people can bring so much to the surface and allow it to be processed. When it comes to self-expression, I am a person who is preoccupied with what others think. I believe this is a natural quality of harmonizing with the environment that every empath possesses, but it is distorted into a need to belong and fit into a group, suffocating authentic expression. 

Reframing perspectives

As we discussed what is too much and too little self-expression, one of my friends offered this invaluable reflection. If I'm not respecting others and their boundaries, I'm not being very compassionate. But we can reframe this perspective by thinking that if I step on someone else's territory, I'm also giving them the opportunity to express their boundaries, which is a compassionate thing to do. This, along with many other experiences, I believe gave me an extra boost of confidence and courage to be vulnerable in front of others. 
 

Releasing Identities stored in the subtle bodies

Another experience worth mentioning is when we had this exercise where one participant stood in the centre of the circle and the other participants called all the names they had been called in their lives so far. I took advantage of this opportunity to release some baggage from my school days when I was bullied by a name. As the other participants called out that name, I burst into tears, releasing whatever I was holding. It was also shocking to discover how much we carry in our subtle bodies and how easily a simple exercise can trigger it. 

Expressing authentic beingness

On the same evening, we celebrated Bhuddha Purnima ( full moon day when buddha got enlightened) and I played some songs for everyone. I would like share it here. I think you need headphones to listen to it. 

Vimal 

Dear Openhand community,

I'm thrilled to release the self made music video here with you. The song is called Nammal itha (we are one). Its about the beauty of Gaia and our connection with her. 

We are not separated from nature because we live in concrete buildings, wear clothes, and travel in vehicles. We, like a bird or a butterfly, are part of nature. Personally, I identify with a flower who expresses herself through fragrance and colour.

It's easy to lose our connection and get stuck in our heads about doing and achieving things during these times of great change. It's invaluable to stay connected with Gaia. She can help us to ground ourselves and reconnect with our essence. I consider myself fortunate to live in such close proximity to her beauty. Many thanks to my beautiful partner Soumya, who assisted me with the camera.

I did a rough translation of the Malayalam lyrics and added captions to the video. The song was produced on my computer with the instruments I have. I'm still a fairly inexperienced music producer , but I had a lot of fun and passion putting this together . Please listen with headphones.

With love
Vimal 🙏

What does it feel like when we are in our soul?

How can we connect to the feeling sense of the soul and follow it as a daily experience?

A perspective through my lens of experiences. 

How about you? How do you connect with your soul ? 

Vimal