Which Ascension Gateway are you in?

People often get lost and wonder where they are on the Spiritual Path? The 5GATEWAYS can provide an invaluable pointer, removing unnecessary pain and suffering. Exchange with us here in forum your feelings and experiences. We'll gladly provide some reflections and pointers.

To begin with, here's an overview of the 5GATEWAYS...

  • Gateway 1:"Awakening": you directly sense the interconnectedness of all life and know that what effects one effects all. The intensity of experience through the five senses will have made a dramatic leap, as though the 'volume' was suddenly increased. You're connecting with the magic of the soul and beginning to experience life through it. You start to feel an at-one-ment with all life - a compassion and love for other sentient beings.
  • Gateway 2:"Realignment": as you increasingly tune into the interconnectedness and joy of life, your soul begins to infuse within you, until a profound change happens: the soul takes over from the ego and assumes supreme leadership in your life. There's a sense of always yearning to come from the higher choices, the higher truth, in every moment, in every thing that you do.
  • Gateway 3:"Transfiguration": the path of the soul leads you on a journey of inner purification, which can last many years. Progressively it takes you to a dramatic shift in perception from identification with the personality to being the Seer expressed as the soul. This is preceded by a full kundalini activation, where lower and higher self are united as one - it's experienced as a powerful and liberational energy rising up the spine into the pineal gland (the Third Eye). You now live life as 'the One', the Seer of all things.
  • Gateway 4:"Enlightenment": this is the passage through your past life karma, where aspects of the soul have identified with traumatic circumstances in previous incarnations - how you passed on for example. As your soul unfolds into the causal body, you activate your karma in waves. It impacts your daily life and relationships - you live elements of your past lives through the current moment. You're being invited to reintegrate those lost fragments of soul, bathe in your karma and release it. It ultimately leads to your Enlightenment: being the Seer, expressing freely as the soul through life without attachment.
  • Gateway 5:"Resurrection" - we don't just have one bodily vehicle of expression, but seven, each of which is connected through a main chakra. As the full energy of the soul is unleashed and flowing freely through you, your seven bodily vehicles of expression are finally cleansed, reactivated and re-energised. You unfold into multi-dimensional living. You are now 'ascended', living in the Higher Paradigm, here and now.

What is your experience? Do share below...

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To be honest, I feel like I passed Gateway 3 four years ago when I had some powerful energetic experiences and openings while still in the military.  The experiences turned to terror shortly thereafter and have plunged me through so many layers of past life memories that I still can not distinguish what is real anymore.  Some days I feel like I am at Gateway 4 and some days I feel like I am back at Gateway 1.  As you say, it is not linear, and it is not circular, in my experience.  It just is and my unique experience has been guided by a handful of beings that are telling me that they are even helping me write this because my understanding of the multiverse is still too timid to allow me to flow with my original feelings of greed and conquest that perpetuated the early part of my life.  Now that I have settled down a bit, I feel like a daily practice is needed, but my inner desires still trump my spiritual path and lead me down pathways of guilt and depression (gateway 3) only to spit me out on the other side, with the help of benevolence, at Gateway 3/4.  In the end, I am up and down, filled with terror still, and on the brink of collapse most days from wasting so much energy trying to keep my ego desires alive.  I hope the journey will last a little longer because most days I just want death so as to emerge out of this body and be my true self.  Being able to charge a glass of water with energy, and light up a whole room, seems so trivial now, and having already defeated hordes of reptilian energies and technologies has already left me bored and without purpose.  While the gateways framework was necessary for me at an early stage of my development, I yearn for more to help me understand what really is going on in the meta/multiverse.

With Love and Gratitude,






Considering I'm calling An Awakening of the Rainbow Tribe happening out there in the world right now, I felt it useful to explore the various levels of awakening as expressed in the 5GATEWAYS spiritual/philosophical approach. Essentially they are different levels of awakening to the soul that then inform your life in particular ways. Take a look at the forum intro at the top to get an overview of them. I hasten to add, it's NOT meant to be dogmatic gospel! It's meant more as a framework of inquiry to point to experiences you might be having and then providing methods and approaches that support soul integration.

Which Gateway do you think you might be in?
Do share below and I'll happily offer a reflection,
which could be utterly priceless for your next step.
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I feel I made the Gateway 3 recently, although I had the full Kundalini Awakening already shortly after my Awakening. But the complete deattachment of Need, Lust, Must-Have, Want etc. just happened recently and I feel the Universal Consciousness now and am in Love with everything around me, when I remain in my strength. The Awakening happened in 8/2019, and here I am now, building a Network of Likeminded, who are willing to meet one day. We gather and exchange knowledge and I follow my current side-mission to help Ascension and teach those, who come to me by the law of attraction. It's a beautiful task that relieves me of lots of karma and lets me go deep inside myself. Love & Light to ya'll, Ben


I sincerely don't know. It somehow always everything together, in circles. The only difference that I notice over the years is a greater level of embodiment, the 'quality', 'volume' and intensity of the experience, the gradual shift of a general state of being, the speed in which all the 'previous' states are moved through and manner of moving through all these gateways, the way of connection to 'God', the ways in which inner work is happening (it changes) and the way of living.

It is like, before a new step begins, I fall all the way down and start from the beginning, but it just goes faster and then at some point I hit something new.


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As I've tuned into your journey over the years Yulia, I would say you've been through many of the stages of awakening. And my sense is that you're currently resurrecting the various layers as free flowing soul infuses them. Hence it might feel you're in all the layers.

That's the curious thing with the path. The first general phase is relinquishing attachment as we journey into the source. There's a letting go of identification with the layers which feels like retraction. But then once you hit the deep state of beingness, the soul starts to emerge through you more strongly and you begin the state of embodiment in a more complete way - with the soul infusing all the layers.



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It is not easy still and it feels like I have a lot to learn and work through, but this time I am totally happy and grateful to experience anything and work on anything. All this is amazing and exciting.

The toughest one is the 4D. Very powerful disruptions there...

Thank you so much, Open Praying EmojiHeart



This has been a popular forum thread on Openhandweb since we released the 5GATEWAYS work. We've had thousands of comments from people around the world expressing how the routemap has helped them make sense of where they are on the path. It's eased a lot of the challenge, haziness and misconceptions.

What I always say as well though is, that 5GATEWAYS should not be considered as some fixed, linear and dogmatic gospel! Especially because each person's journey is unique. It is most beneficial and supportive when you consider it more as a framework for inquiry. Meaning it explains the generalities of what people experience as they transition through particular gateways. And then to use those reflections to help clarify what's going on for you - activating kundalini, dissolving inner child identites or processing karma for example.

And neither are the Gateways linear. They are passages through particular inner density layers - the emotional plane for example in Gateway 2. And since we are multidimensional beings and the densities interrelate, it's highly possible that you'll be processing two or more at the same time. So for example activating kundalini as you approach Gateway 3 but also processing karma, which might be considered as Gateway 4. However completion of each Gateway is linear. You cannot process all your karma until Kundalini has been fully avtivated for example.

So what's been your experience of the inner Gateways? Do share, and I'll happily offer a reflection.

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Thought and felt i would share some of my journey. I have been interested in the spiritual development for quite some time and longing for shifts. But when it came, it hit me like a freight train and challenged me to the core. Imagine leaving a "normal" life with family, kids and other attributes (what they call an American dream), and then it happened. Metaphorically speaking, it was like driving a nice car in the countryside all happy and then all of a sudden i hit the invisible wall and all my shit started flying that wasn't holding well and what remains is the core of me. It was like being in the shit storm.

This is difficult to write about ... but will keep going. There was some denial that it was happening and attempts to run away from it. But I knew i had to face it and work through it as it was my stuff. For some reason, i wanted to know all the details even though it really hurt. It looked like i was being sadistic to myself but now i know i was using the situation to go to all the places where i felt resistances and denial. Yes, it got really hot. I felt like i wanted to hold on to "hot coals" until they cool down at the point where i didn't need the situation to go away. And it did cool down and transformed me and our relationship. I am now more authentic and our relationship/partnership is more authentic. I know there will be challenges ahead but i am ready to deal with them when they come.

The whole experience was a breakthrough and i felt some shifts in consciousness in the process. I know i had to work through some attachments in physical and emotional planes. I am not where i am on the journey but i am excited about the coming transfiguration course in Bruges.

With Love,


Hi Eddie and all,

I can see the value in sharing experiences and hearing of experiences that you resonate with (and those you don't resonate with sometimes can be gems too). They can point us in particular directions or assist us in understanding our own truth. Yet I also recognise the value in letting go of comparison, something I continue to work on... Comparison implies that one is better or less than the other. Theodore Rossevelt once said that "Comparison is the thief of joy", seems about right to me!

We are all equal, just different, wherever we are on the path :)

Trin - love that quote (f)

With love, Fiona


It has become abundantly clear to me that I have only had a small pre awakening. So I here I am at the beginning again or maybe for the first time for real. Spiritual Experiences themselves are only Transient. The shift of consciousness is irrevocable? Is this how it is? How we are Being is what determines how we Create? Then by looking at what we are creating we can see a reflection of our current true nature? So far I have learned best by watching others and comparing to my own experiences. This serves me less now than it has. Here i am getting a little more Naked. Strangely enough it feels ok in this group. You are all beautiful Namaste Eddie


Ever since I took 10 days silent retreat Vipassana in India I have felt the shift.
"Everybody" told me that I HAD to go to India. After Vippassana I thought that was the reason.
I had allready dicovered Cabo Verde before I went to India and felt a triangel in me, Norway, India Cabo Verde. Lately, living in Cabo Verde I have discovered that the Indian hippie woman I have "seen" and felt, is actually me living before in Cabo Verde. I feel I am supposed to fullfill what she started.
After my sense of oneness, I have become much more sensitive in general and to vibration. All my life I have been singing and making music so I understand frequences. I feel what my body want, and I workout and eat with that purpose, not to "feel something" like the previus me. I observe my thoughts. I've startet feeling Bluetooth, emotions/feelings like breezes of wind and people''s vibe. I have just good interactions with everybody I meet, but I need my solitude where I can write and be creative, in nature.


Treebrother, Wynde, Open - thank you so, so much. So this is the interconnectedness of all things?

So when I literally feel and see anothers soul (which I can do very easily)I am also looking at my soul? When I see anothers soul expand, grow and shine its beautiful light, I am watching my soul shine its beautiful light? And all this time I doubted that I had a soul. I rubbed my hands together Wynde and could really feel the energy tingling. So the trace I leave - when my words of compassion and encouragement bring tears of joy and I feel my heart sing, yes, it is like sinking into a deep aromatic bath - that's my soul.

So stop trying to look and search and just be it, because its all there. The interconnectedness, the raised awareness, its all there. Thank you so, so much for seeing something in me that I couldn't see. Now I think I understand what you meant Open when you said don't open the door, just step through. Don't struggle, just be. Namaste - sending so much love and gratitude. xxx


Hi Cathy - a brilliant sharing and so open and honest. Honesty is always the leading step for strong evolutionary growth. Consequently I too have witnessed the massive changes in your process during the time I've known you - awesome *OK*

What you've described reveals so well why the Gateways model can be so powerful. We get to really see where we are in it. You know then what you've got to work with.

I commend how you're approaching it Cathy - it bodes well for the journey.

Much love

Open *give_rose*


Thanks y'all for the insightful and inspiring discussion! And thank you, Open, for raising the topic.

I've been feeling into where I'm at in the Gateways since I first read this post. I felt it as an invite to go deep into what conditioned patterns are holding me back (always a feast for the Grays). I looked back to when I first joined the Openhand community in 2013 and feel pretty darn good about how far I've come since then in expanding my consciousness. Back then, my soul longed to express and free itself. But I was too fearful to express my feelings honestly, in general. I would suppress, suppress, and suppress some more. Then the lid would blow off, and I would over-express, pissing myself and others off, blaming myself, feeling ashamed and guilty. I still have my moments, but I'm far better at expressing how I honesty feel now without dishing out the 'loaded' words. That's not to say I always get it right about how I dish it out. But better, yes, indeed.

Thanks to participating in Openhand workshops, I came to realize that I had denied the vulnerability of my soul and had attached to a false, love/light spiritual identity, and had sunk massively into an 'anything goes' mode, allowing others to trample over me with disrespect and a lack of kindness and compassion. I burst that love/light bubble a while back! Now I call it for the most part when whatever is happening feels deeply misaligned, disrespectful, and unacceptable to me. I am getting better at 'calling' it respectfully but firmly from a calm, centered space.

I have honoured my soul's longing at various points in my life to express aligned, right action due to the powerful uprising of warrior will I felt from deep within, but I didn't always do that with calm resolve. Sometimes I got the balance between Ray 1/will and Ray 2/Surrender just right. The Peaceful Warrior. Sometimes not. At times, I quelled the uprising of warrior will out of fear and did not act on what felt right and aligned in the deepest depths of my being. Now I act on those feelings much more often and then move into right, aligned action. What a sense of joy and fulfillment that brings! That's not to say it's always an easy path! That's an understatement! But I increasingly have experiences when I spontaneously go for it. Instead of getting stuck in a mind maze of intellectual over-analysis and dissection, dampening the embers of my soul in fearful 'what if's'. It's a powerful sense of fiery commitment, resolve, and rightness that proclaims ultimately, "I'd rather be dead than not act on what feels right. This is who I am. This is what feels right here and now. This is where I stand and hold."

So when all is said and done, I feel I'm in Gateway 2/Realignment, aligning most of the time with the fiery will of my soul, supported by synchronicity, flowing with the divine, taking that first step down a path of light that beckons, "Come hither! We are with you."

In feeling into the invite that Open put out there (Where are you in the Gateways?), I have been contemplating the conditioned habit patterns that hold me back at times from aligning with my soul's authentic pull. When I first got into the Openhand way, I tried to 'control' aligning with what I discerned as right, denying deep-set patterns of behaviour that I have been immersed in throughout my life. That kind of 'forced' alignment most certainly did not feel effortless and harmonious. It felt like torture, in fact. So I've learned to honour my conditioning (I am not to blame but I am responsible for letting it go), finding patience and acceptance while observing myself caught up in all those ruts, those neural pathways, aware of OC's tentacles in the background. Continually refining the balance between Ray 1 warrior will and Ray 2 surrender and acceptance.

All in all, I feel I'm getting close to letting go of what no longer serves my evolutionary journey and realigning most of the time with my soul's will and the flow of divine benevolence. And when I do, I'll be heading down the corridor to Gateway 3/Transfiguration. I have some fears around that as in, "Lord Shiva, please don't let my kundalini awakening be too disruptive!" :)

x Cathy


Hi Dear Heather - if you can see and inspire soul in another, then you are ALREADY inspiring soul in yourself!

Perhaps we need to expand the understanding of what soul is and truly feels like.

There are many qualities of the soul that animate your being. There are obvious ones like love, joy and compassion. And there's also experiences of deep inner peace, self acceptance, expansiveness; and also will, commitment, bravery and courage. There's also diplomacy, selfless service, and pure divine magic which just seems to happen around you without even doing anything.

    The the soul is intangible, not physical, you can't see it or touch it.
    To me, it is best considered like the wind through the trees,
    it is known by the trace it leaves.

And so how do you best know your own soul?

It's essentially a sense of rightness in the things that you do - like when you help others for example and derive joy from that - you're doing something selfless, beyond the small self "I". And that could be something as simple as putting up a kind, supportive comment on this thread. It's when you drop deep into yourself and you're right in the sense of aligned vibe - "aha, yes, this is me." Like coming home and sinking into a hot aromatic bath.

The soul is simply a sense of rightness in how you're being. An ease with that.


Open *OK*


You Treebrother are always always welcome!!!

Heather, go to a mirror and look yourself in the eyes and just say Hello Beautiful. There you are. Clap your hands joyously, lift your arms above your head and dance around. Sing your song. There you are. You have been you all along. The body is just hmmmmm, the vessel to carry you forward. You want to feel you? Rub your hands together really really really fast then clap your hands once and just hold them inches apart. There you are. Does it make sense now? I pray that it does for you, because Sister.. YOU are a beautiful soul! My love and my heart goes out to you and your lovely journey in this life.

Open Thank you for the clarification, I get more things today that I did yesterday. I know what was screaming my name and a lot of things are making perfect sense to me now. The US and the world in its entirety is definitely on the brink of something good. Change isn't often easy, but it is what it is, its change and yup...It happens and humanity deserves the absolute best and its high time for that! This is our planet, we were born of this earth, this earth does not belong to an individual but to each and every soul born upon it. Without borders, without constraint. Regardless of opposition this is where it will go.

Much Love to you all


Thank you Wynde for the encouragement!
Open your words hold a deeper meaning than they appear to. NAMASTE AND THANK YOU!!
Heather, you can only see the light in others because it already shines in you. Its really that simple. So why worry about the details just be you whatever that is right now. Then keep refining and unfolding that as you go. When i stopped trying to see the magic in life, I began to BE IT!!! Namaste dear sister, Eddie


Thank you Open, thank you so much. And just seeing those words from Js touched me. “Yes. I feel the same.”

One thing that struck me is how I think I have misinterpreted 5 Gateways – I didn’t realise one could be working through more than one Gateway at a time, so I have been trying I guess to ‘tick all the boxes’ that would indicate to me I have gone through Gateway 1. I am not connecting with the magic of the soul because I can’t feel it or see it, so can’t get through the Gateway. I asked once on a workshop in Glastonbury, because I couldn’t see or feel my soul, did it mean I didn’t have one and your words gave me hope. Of course I have a soul. But two years down the road and I am still stuck.

So although I feel stuck myself, why do I find it so delightfully easy to support others becoming ‘unstuck’ if you like? I facilitated some motivation type training with colleagues and felt the pull to cover ‘being the best version of you’. I may not be able to feel my soul or see where it is, but oh my goodness – I can feel it in others. Literally feeling their confidence grow, seeing the almost imperceptible straightening of shoulders, the chin going up, eyes once locked to the floor, surprising themselves with their sudden ability to look into another’s eyes, feeling the toes dip gingerly into the water as they take a sneaky peek at who they are, feeling their joy when they realise that what they see is pretty freakin awesome! Now I feel all that and feel the humble joy of being able to gently support that amazing transformation. It makes my heart sing. So why can I see and feel another’s soul and be able to watch them realise just how worthy they are, but not my own? It doesn’t make sense at all.
I’m diving in to that ‘not making sense’ and trying to become one with it. It’s good to know you are all ‘out there’. It really is. Thank you. xxx


Thanks for the great responses everyone - thanks for tuning in *OK*

Please allow me to share some deeper thoughts on relating to the 5GATEWAYS in this Great Shift, raised by your contemplations...

Vulnerability and being in Relationship

Eddie, I'm with you, I can feel your vulnerability in all of this, and it will carry you a long way. And with regards to "single people moving faster", well, remember the story of the rabbit and the tortoise? In the Journey of Ascension, for me, it's more about being sure to fully complete each stage. Being in relationship challenges in deeply profound ways - if you're being honest with yourself (as I know you are), then it brings up all the stuff we have to work with.

Finding the eye of the Storm

Can you feel the storm brewing out there everyone? Just look for example at the day-by-day craziness unfolding in the US. But as you point out Anatoly...

    "Being in the middle of the storm i also felt more alive and connected to my soul as if i could feel the sweetness of it.

Exactly! When we don't resist the truth of what's coming up, then you don't distance yourself from it. This may sound like a contradiction - how does that help? When you intentionally distance yourself from something confronting you, then you create polarity - identity - in relation to it. It actually makes the circumstance even more real. However, if you go right into the heart of the situation, then you become as-One with it - The One in it. You find the eye of the storm and burst the myth of the illusion that the situation always was. Because how ever challenging, it's a choice as to whether you let circumstances define you.

An Ascending Family

Jen, your vision of an ascending family is incredibly powerful - thanks so much for sharing, it touches my heart. So often in this Great Shift, people on the path say they feel alone. It's not surprising - it would seem that because comparatively there's so few of us, we've chosen to incarnate spread all over the world. In a physical and intellectual sense, we can feel very separate. But through the ether we are not. And now is the time to focus on that connecting energy more and more. It's not something you have to follow though. It's our own soul that we must follow. But at the same time, consider there's this vast vortex of energy building, that you can tune into, that helps you feel the ascending direction of the shift - a bridge that helps you tune into your higher dimensional self; and also one that helps bring ascending people together toward this common destiny. It's simply breath-taking - awesome!

The Gateways are not Simply Linear - but interrelated

Hi Wyndè and Ann - thanks for sharing - somethings you both said caused me to feel to reiterate something very important about the Gateways that I talked about in the book - they are not simply linear.

What is a Gateway?

It is the transition through a particular density of being. For example, your soul may be causing you to challenge the sense of separation around the physical density. So you are engaged strongly in very physical things - challenging existential questions for example. Your soul might, for instance, manifest a purposeful lack of resources in your life so that you could constantly remind yourself you are not physical. You could be working on passing through Gateway 2 (the plane of the emotions): so you manifest the temptation of giving up your power in relationships, so as to work on regaining it. You might be working in Gateway 3 - on the plane of the intellect, where you might be challenging inner child conditioning.

AND MOST LIKELY.... you will be working on several of the Gateways together. Because of course, you are a multidimensional being. So your soul interrelates through several of the Gateways and may well be working on them together.

HOWEVER.... the likelihood is, that at any given time, one of the Gateways will stand out most strongly. That's because the particular pattern of experiences you're manifesting at the time, will have a particular density of vibration. And so your centre of consciousness is pulled more to that vibration.

ADDITIONALLY... although you might be working on several Gateways together, the ceremonies themselves, which mark the completion of a Gateway, are linear. You can't, for example, completely pass through the plane of karma in Gateway 4, before you've become fully transfigured in Gateway 3. Likewise, you won't realign with your true soul's purpose in Gateway 2, until you've fully expanded out of the isolation and separation caused by identification with the physical plane in Gateway 1.

The incredible power of Gateway 2

I'd like to be really clear about Gateway 2 and what that's all about. Often people will get partial tasters of the higher Gateways and when presented with the routemap, may feel they're already through some of the higher ones. When Gateway 2 completes, it comes with the most powerful surrendering to the soul's path. It's like a breaking down, giving up trying to shape and control the physical life. It's like you could literally give everything up, so long as you're now coming from the soul. It's because you realise nothing is really in truth in your life, if you're not coming from that place. So the only place to really begin, is to locate and come from, the soul's impulse in every moment. Even if you're in density and can't fully feel it, even if you make 'mistakes', nevertheless there's that practically complete commitment to looking for the soul's impulse.

How to move forwards when you feel stuck?

Heather I feel you. How do you move forwards when you feel stuck? What do you actually look for? If you feel stuck in your current situation, then I would suggest just observing what's going on and your responses to it. What do you feel internally in relation to what's happening in your life? Work to be as much in the moment as possible - so you're witnessing yourself as stuff is happening. That way, you will start to disassociate from the experience itself. And by that, I don't mean distancing from the experience. I mean you start to realise you are not the experience itself; that there is something else within, that is not defined by the experience. This in itself begins to unleash soul. It leads to the awakening and arising of soul out of the separation. So keep working with exactly what is presenting in the moment and you'll come through just fine.

No worries folks, I can feel you; you're doing just great!
Keep observing, keep feeling, keep working with what shows up.

Sending you all much love and support

Open *give_rose*


I want to change my above answer! To a complete affirmation of I have zero idea of which one I am at.

I walked away from my earlier answer and just threw my hands up in the air and thought well....who's to say and who's to know really. Then that internal dialogue happens and Ive felt all day going hmmmm!! Those moments in time in my life that used to be full of complete sorrow when looked at by me had dissipated, had been what I thought to be processed completely.. Then all of a sudden I'm looking at them again, picking them up inside me and seeing the story all over again. Like I'm telling myself my story all over again and a part of me is thinking, been there, done that do I really need to integrate into again?! I relived parts of my life in a few hour's time and just feel very very tired now.

So I have no idea, all I know for absolute certainty is that I did not have to come here, that I chose it. To help people. Yet somewhere in that I forgot to help myself too, which is what I'm working on.



I have not yet gone through the first gateway - I don't 'feel' it or see it but I know its there. I think you said once Open, dont open it, just step through, but I don't know where to step. I understand the words, they make complete sense, but the soul is stuck. <3 Namaste


I don't know if this makes sense but my experience through the gateways does not seem to be linear. I flowed in and out of Gateway 1 for many years. I now have an amplified sense of at oneness with all life and feel much sadness when I witness others having a complete disregard. Although at times my sense of oneness can get a little murky so I hesitate to claim that I am all the way through gateway 1.

Gateway 2 has been difficult for me probably because I spent so much of my life unconsciously out of alignment. To realign many things first have to unravel and that has been overwhelming. And as I go through the process I face challenges from family and friends who question what the heck is going on with me and I have no answer because they wouldn't even begin to understand. Old friends drift away so that kind of takes care of itself but family is more difficult. The unraveling also brings up fears because even though things were out of alignment they were comfortable and a roadmap of sorts. The more I unravel the more out of my comfort zone I go with only the longing of my soul to be in flow pushing me forward.

So I recognize I am still working with gateway 2 yet I have been going through physical, emotional and spiritual inner purification for years. It has been an unfolding and been progressing in a way that keeps drawing me in deeper. Also at times I have the sense I have activated and am working through some past life karma.

So without overthinking this, it feels like I am "multi-tasking" and working through multiple gateways at the same time not because I am trying to overachieve or rush the process but just because that's how things appear to be showing up for me.


Heyas all!
Open, I'm pretty sure Ive been in, lived in, experienced all that which is written there in the 5 gateway's about a million times over the course of my life. Which is a bit odd, its like knowing/seeing it all unfold and then jumping back out of the in between per say and pointing a finger at it all whilst saying OH WTF is that. What is happening here. Thats pretty much the moment Ive jumped off the ledge and entered back into focus/processing/must understand completely the entirety of this that I have experienced.

Treebrother, I would like to comment a bit on your comment about the Don't USA and shadow side. It's been said a gazillion times before, spoken and thought all in same, yet different ways.. But without a don't, there is no do. Without a shadow, there is no light. Without shame, there is no acceptance and so on and so forth you know.

Could just be me. I kinda live/love/cannot be anything but it all you know. I am the shadow side and I am the light side. I am the in between more or less too. I keep trying to comprehend fully both and everything in between, but then I see a squirrel outside my window and go Squirrel!!!! I love squirrels :) Then I realize I've just freed myself from the intense contemplation of it all and just decided to let it all just be as it will be. 3d, 5d, 20d.. Some day's its just all the same to me. It's like running through a sprinkler as a child. Left, middle, right. In one side, Oh look its the middle - how precious! Ooh now I'm on the other side lol
Is that not the dance of life?! Are we not supposed to enjoy everything while being in this state called life, or should it be limited?!

Ive tried many many times before to talk to other people about these sorts of things and most just say Michelle, you just need to dumb it down a bit more because you just flew back up in the air and I'm trying to get you, but I just cant. Because most if not all, are to me, picking sides. I do not understand this, it is illogical for me pick a side. Because what one perceives as shadow is just another form of light in the spectroscope.

Oh anyways, I finally purchased all the books. I am muddling through Breakthrough. I say muddling because I keep stopping, inhaling sharply and thinking OMG! Maybe that is what was and is screaming my name out. But then I don't understand this screaming of my name, I mean I know I'm half deaf and all but I'm not that deaf!!! This makes no sense to me, back to the drawing board I guess :)

Want for others what they want for themselves, in all things and in all way's


Hmmm..well this is interesting. Lately, I have been consciously connecting to the Openhand energy and energetically infusing the space before I go to bed. I had a powerful dream last night that I was at an Openhand gathering and sitting at the "top" of a spiral with you Open - you went down to the cirlce and I went down as well. When I arrived I felt this powerful wave of souls arriving into the circle. There was interference happening from just outside the circle. Open and anyone who could feel it were holding a vibration and it was removing the interference. At first I stayed outside the circle and then joined and held the vibration. The people inside the circle were crying and releasing all of this struggle. At one point there was an asian man in the center of the circle just looking at me with tears in his eyes. I woke up at that point and my body is still in the vibration that was there in the dream. I felt to share it because I can feel the sense of family gathering around me more now - and the Openhand energy right here.

As for gateways, I would say I have been sitting in the corridor to Gateway 2...I am aware of places that I am invited yet not yet felt able to proceed - maybe that's resistance, maybe it's right - maybe it's a little of both. I feel strongly to just keep being me - and I keep watching the outer circumstances shaping and reshaping...I can't see where it's all going, but it's clear it's evolving and that by staying in what feels real and true for me, unravelling is happening.


Yeah, i can feel you Eddie. I am too feeling some apprehension and at the same time a lot of excitement as it gets closer to Bruges trip. Being the only financial supporter in the family adds some spice to it but i am learning to trust the universe will provide with necessary resources as my journey unfolds. My spiritual journey got a boost at the time of my personal relationship challenges which felt at times like going through burning gates. I am very grateful that at the same time i was reading Openhand books which helped me with the process confronting and dealing with the challenges. Strangely, but being in the middle of the storm i also felt more alive and connected to my soul as if i could feel the sweetness of it. Now, I am not looking for a storm but ready for it (or at least that's what i think and feel). With Love, Anatoly.


I remember being 16 years old and having the experience of Unconditional Love flowing through me like a waterfall. I have always felt the interconnectedness of all things, it just is. Realignment for me has been a struggle over the last 29 years of getting lost in the drama of the 3d and falling off the wagon and getting back on repeatedly. There is so much BS Dogma out there to fool you into thinking you are less than what you are and waste your time chasing rainbows. I am so happy that I found this group about a year ago. I have a large apprehension right now as the pieces click into place to go to Brussels this summer. Change is uncertain and a little scary. Sitting here typing this my mind is running a mile a minute thinking about the paths i have seen so many others take. Those further along than me are mostly single and i am so lucky to have finally found a partner that is so amazing i can't find the words to describe our relationship. Ultimately we are all alone always but it still scares me in a way. The unknown but it is also infinite possibility in the yet unlived moments so the only thing we have to fear is fear itself. Part of me wants to run into the wilderness and dig myself a hobbit hole and shut out the rest of the world but i am too social for that. So here i am in the Don'T USA. I have seldom been more ashamed of being part of this country than now. WTF the shadow side is sure in the light and it gets crazier by the day!!! but i digress there you have it raw and uncut.....Please share your thoughts on my ramblings Namaste Brothers and Sisters Eddie


    Gateway 1:"Awakening": you directly sense the interconnectedness of all life and know that what effects one effects all. The intensity of experience through the five senses will have made a dramatic leap, as though the 'volume' was suddenly increased. You're connecting with the magic of the soul and beginning to experience life through it. You start to feel an at-one-ment with all life - a compassion and love for other sentient beings.

    Gateway 2:"Realignment": as you increasingly tune into the interconnectedness and joy of life, your soul begins to infuse within you, until a profound change happens: the soul takes over from the ego and assumes supreme leadership in your life. There's a sense of always yearning to come from the higher choices, the higher truth, in every moment, in every thing that you do.

    Gateway 3:"Transfiguration": the path of the soul leads you on a journey of inner purification, which can last many years. Progressively it takes you to a dramatic shift in perception from identification with the personality to being the Seer - pure presence - expressed as the soul. This is preceded by a full kundalini activation, where lower and higher self are united as one - it's experienced as a powerful and liberational energy rising up the spine into the pineal gland (the Third Eye). You now live life as 'the One', the Seer of all things.

    Gateway 4:"Enlightenment": this is the passage through your past life karma, where aspects of the soul have identified with traumatic circumstances in previous incarnations - how you passed on for example. As your soul unfolds into the causal body, you activate your karma in waves. It impacts your daily life and relationships - you live elements of your past lives through the current moment. You're being invited to reintegrate those lost fragments of soul, bathe in your karma and release it. It ultimately leads to your Enlightenment: being the Seer, expressing freely as the soul through life without attachment.

    Gateway 5:"Resurrection" - we don't just have one bodily vehicle of expression, but seven, each of which is connected through a main chakra. As the full energy of the soul is unleashed and flowing freely through you, your seven bodily vehicles of expression are finally cleansed, reactivated and re-energised. You unfold into multi-dimensional living as a way of life. You are now 'ascended', living in the Higher Paradigm, here and now.

What is your experience? Do share below...


Shortly, in the not too distant future, Openhand will be launching the "Great 5D Shift Project". It's a monumental task, with the majority of work going on behind the scenes, through the ether. In essence, it's about connecting together, through the different densities, a multidimensional bridge, that connects up the various benevolent groups working to support the Great Shift that is now gathering apace.

    The shift is not haphazard. Humanity is not alone in his endeavour. There is a vast array of support and guidance through the ether out there, in higher densities, many of whom are now coming together at this time in support.

In the 3D, there are countless practices and spiritual approaches out there that are already beginning to touch this bridge, whether intentionally or not. In other words, there are plenty of practices that have the capacity to bring you to it. The various forms of meditation for example, yoga, tai chi, various dance, movement and bodywork; sacred sexuality, and in fact a whole plethora of different consciousness expanding philosophies and practices that have sprung up through the years.

    This is what I find so exciting about the project: there's no one way to it, there's no one "right way" that everyone must and should follow. In fact for each soul there will be a unique way, YOUR WAY. A good facilitator or mirror may point you to the inner Gateways that you must pass through, but only YOU can pass through then, and only in YOUR way.

5GATEWAYS will be, and is, a fundamental part of this facilitation. Let's be clear - it is not a religion, it is not some kind of dogma set out that you "must follow". It is not some rigid belief system. It is a routemap, which points out milestones, at different "altitudes", that people tend to experience as they ascend the spiritual mountain.

    You may well have your own treasured practice, your own way - brilliant, that's to be 100% encouraged. But let your practice be constantly evolving, constantly growing, where you're constantly inquiring and testing the approach - otherwise it may only take you to a plateau.

What shifts are you making? How is your consciousness expanding? What are you experiencing as a result? And then, how do you notice your journey is beginning to relate to the 5GATEWAYS routemap? Do you notice some of the shifts spoken of happening in your life? The idea of the routemap, is to cause people to truly question where they are at within their evolution and to spur people on.

    People from all around the planet, in all walks of life, say how accurately it reflects the kinds of experiences they're having.

So the 5GATEWAYS routemap will play a key role in this Great 5D Shift Project. Right now, great work is happening by spiritual people across the planet. But it is very dissipated with little cohesion bringing resources and groups of people together - connecting them with a common sense of purpose and destiny.

It feels like a monumental task to work to try to make this happen. But it feels greatly worthwhile. I know it will mean many more people can make this Great 5D Shift unfolding all around us.

So where are you in the Gateways do you feel? What kinds of experiences are you having? By sharing, maybe I can offer a few reflections on how you might move forwards.

Open :-)


Finally read a few more of the earlier exchanges in this article and what a beautiful exchange a few years back you and Lesley had Open.

I read your "Moved to the core" post and you managed to find a way to express this whole Journey / Process with Graceful, Beautiful resonating words, I read pretty much all your articles and all are really good but this "Moved to the core" sharing is UNIQUE and SPECIAL.

May I recommend that at some point where you see fit you add the direct link to it in the 'Whats new' section, as u do with some of your posts. it is only a recommendation as I now know where to find it and have access to reading it now a few more times :)


Thank you for your insight. In the most recent scenario it was a young female deer that came extremely close and showed a lot of interest in me in the woods by my home, and I think I pushed her away with fear (although I also didn't want her to come too close to the road, where cars could hurt her). The previous day it was a really beautiful snake that came very close (crossing my path prior to starting my hike with a friend), although it certainly wasn't trying to bother me and showed minimal interest in me. Both frightened me immensely, as I thought they would harm me. I will try to take your kind suggestions to better understand this and work through it.



Certainly animals get ever closer, as your vibration harmonises and calms.

Why would you be afraid of that? How does the fear make you feel?
If you can't answer immediately, then try sitting in a quiet place and regress yourself into the experience: seeing the images and feeling into the feelings that come up. It's an important part of liberation from it.



Excellent suggestions, thank you. I've started gardening recently which I really enjoy, and have been practicing breathing and meditation exercises. I often stop the latter after only brief periods because it gets a little intense for me and I get a little scared sometimes, but hopefully more practice will help. I've also noticed that when I hike or sit quietly in the woods/park, animals come much closer to me than I'm accustomed to. This occasionally frightens me too. Is this something anyone else has experienced?


Hi 76,

Do you have a daily meditational practice? My sense is that the best way to begin, is to find some solidity within your experience - that which is apart from the pain initially. Don't intentionally supress the pain, but find a centred sense of peace.

That could be a breathing meditation, deep consciousness bodywork like yoga for example, or spending plenty of time in nature. You could also try some of the guided meditations in our audio section....


Afterwards, you could then connect with one of our facilitators, who will gladly help you work forwards through any pain and density...


With best wishes



I think I'm still at Gateway 1 (just got here) but I'm struggling with some of the new challenges, fear (sometimes overwhelming) and some physical symptoms that I don't know how to respond to (pain in the base of my skull, lower back, etc). Also having a hard time keeping things balanced. An help or suggestions are appreciated!


There was someone in my life who I was holding on to with tightness.... I was empathically connected to this person who I was romantically involved with, and although this person was a drain to me, I thought that I was meant to keep trying to make it a healthy friendship. I realize now, that even within our platonic friendship I was desperate for this person to validate and love me. The connection that remained between us also confused me and made me feel like I was supposed to keep giving to that relationship.
On the last full moon during a spiritual circle I attend people were talking about letting go, and that relationship came to mind, and in that instance I noticed my resistance and tightness was about letting go and stopping the giving. I was scared to let go of it. That night I walked alone staring at the full moon and committed to stop feeding the relationship. When I was home I deleted his phone number and cut our social media ties. The week that followed felt like a gradual decompression and yesterday I had a very spiritual experience when I was walking outside... I felt freer and lighter than ever before in my life. I was free of not just the weight of other peoples expectations of me, but also free of what I expected and thought of myself. I was filled with a warm sense of well being, ... that no matter what happens in my life, or the result of the endeavours I am currently engaged in, I will still be me and will be OK, simply by virtue of being me. Since I let go, I no longer am struggling to be authentic in my interactions with other people... the fear is gone - though I am not sure before I would have called it fear - it is effortless for me now.

Although I still have some mental patterning, for example before doing tasks or making calls etc that normally would have been met with a huge amount of anxiety and resistance I will still have a thought like ... "oh no this is going to suck" but rather than feel that or experience fear or feed the thought, I just do the task or make the call with ease.

Not sure if this would be considered a gateway shift, but I definitely FEEL that there has been a definite permanent shift in my energy. Like more of myself is available to me and within my interactions with others now. SO excited for life, and feeling so amazingly OK with whatever is awaiting me in my future.

Thank You! The teachings here definitely facilitated the thinking that led me to identify a huge source of tightness in my life for what it was. The relationship as I see it now, was a result of my old way of trying to connect with people- through codependency, control, and people pleasing behaviour -- and letting go of my desire for this person to give me love has opened up my heart to receiving love from the people in my life and those I encounter everyday.


How do we function in the 3D? I'd say always confront the tightness of difficult behaviours and choices. Always take the opportunity to unravel through the conditioning then let an emerging aspect of beingness guide the show.

Yes I've met many ascending. There's relatively few yet though through the higher gateways. And yes, all have karma who come here. That's the nature of the place. And there's different types of karma - different levels of it. Not just 4th dimensional. We kept it simple in the film - only so much you can convey. It's meant as a unifying starting point.

Keep well



Thank You Jenny and Open for the warm welcome!

Open, thank you for the guidance. Confidence is an issue for me, 31 years spent trying to fit in never let much chance to explore my abilities. Although creativity is flowing easier and easier each day, the struggles to trust with others is still a big theme. Expressing myself to others does feel as if it is an important part of my path. I agree transfiguration isn't complete, - the subconscious wounded child fears still sometimes feel like mine and although I always feel strongly now what is not right, what IS right is more elusive. I haven't come to discover how to live in a way that is nurturing for me. Its too much trial and error, but never losing the commitment or falling asleep to the truth. its been ongoing for the past 2.5 years however a good deal of that time unravelling the big mistakes of career put in motion prior to committing to authentic self and learning (still) how to function in 3d in an authentic way and without the protection and care of my ex husband, with only the past 8 months spent focused more spiritually.
I read once about "wanderers" which I think is similar to what you called star souls. It resonated deeply, especially the part about always feeling there was a mission. When I made the decision when I was 19 to live logically focused I felt as if I was telling myself " I know you feel you are supposed to be a different way but I don't know how to do it".
Have you met others like this who have ascended through the higher gateways? Did they too have karma despite being from away?

Thank you



Hi Little Sage,

Welcome to Openhand, it's wonderful that you feel to be so open. You are amongst friends, and it may surprise you, that in this family, you are definitely not at all unusual or strange. You have a classic star soul configuration and energy - a soul that has existed for a good deal of time in other constellations and vibrational paradigms. Such souls often struggle to fit in and be accepted here.

Blending is important, but only in order to be functional in a 3D sense. What's most important and most exciting, is when you can fully unleash your gifts into the world in a managed way. By that I mean learning how to contain the energy without suppressing it or denying it; finding ways to express confidently, as and when it feels given and right to do so. This is no small challenge, but one which you 'signed up for' (otherwise, you simply wouldn't be here).

I don't believe you're quite where you think you are though - not between Gateways 3 and 4. Much more likely is between Gateways 2 and 3. I sense that when you left your marriage, this marked the commitment to the soul - the realignment to walking the path of the soul and only that. It sounds strongly like Gateway 2.

But I don't feel lower and higher self are fully integrated yet. You said...

    "Right now I often alternate between feeling joy and excitement, so happy to be alive in this time , to feeling crushed by the matrix, frustrated with my challenges with connecting from the heart with language, economically vulnerable, concerned about my ability to support my daughter and myself. I can't go back to the old -- but I'm not yet totally at ease with walking the path never knowing whats next."

This sounds much more like someone getting used to walking the path and confronting inner darkness leading to Transfiguration. In fact we describe this 'roller coaster of emotions' in a similar way in the film.

Perhaps the confusion is happening because of your star soul nature - the fact that you can more easily access higher dimensional experiences than human souls can, and from an early age. But that still doesn't mean you're transfigured - lower and higher self fully integrated.

The challenge now would be, to integrate this higher spiritual awareness into all aspects of your daily life in a grounded way; to work through the density and challenges, finding expressions that work. Over time, this will lead to integration (of lower and higher self) and then transfiguration.

I trust this helps

Open *give_rose*


Hello Little Sage Sarah,

I feel so touched by your sharing. There is such a transparency and authenticity to the feeling of your words. I can relate with aspects of what you share with regard to communication as well as both the depth of and detachment from feeling. What an inspiring journey you have been on. I am sure you will find this community incredibly supportive on the path. Welcome! With love, Jen


Hi Everyone,

I had been reading Open's writing over at wake-upworld.com, that led me over here where I watched the 5 gateways film. It made me happy. The softening into tightness resonated and has opened up in my mind the truth and way through some of my current challenges. Many things shared in the film were relatable, I think my experience at this time seems similar to what was described as gateways 3 and 4. How I got here though seems different then the experiences shared in the film. I would be grateful for any comments or insight.
I've always felt very different, and I have been diagnosed with high functioning autism or what used to be called aspergers in my case. My earliest memories of cognition involved observing the way things were done in the world and being very shocked at how different it was from the truth I could see. I also did not feel speaking in language was ever an adequate way of communicating for me.... it couldn't grasp the fullness of my experience. It was very disappointing when I came to understand others were not experiencing the magnitude of the world in the way I was. My speech as a child alternated from bursts of inspired wisdom or humour, like a little philosopher, to a purely cognitive logical masculine way of communicating. As a result, it was easier for me to play with boys, . The only way I could form words was through a feeling of inspiration or an effortful process of logic. As I got older it seemed I became more detached and disassociated from emotional experience, I lived as the observer, never associated with my own position, not really ever feeling my own needs in a situation. I was always taken advantage of as I could always understand where others were coming from. My upbringing involved emotional abuse from my parents which required me to further disassociate from my feeling based experience.
The one joy that was reliable in my youth was music and was funnelled into music school where I did not experience joy when practicing the required materials, I would go to the practice room and all I wanted to do was play and create... eventually it became obvious I wouldn't make it through music school, .... I had to figure out something else to study. . This was a heartbreaking experience for me, I wanted to die at 19 -- it seemed there would be no way to be me and survive in this world, .... the logical, detached aspect of me told my soul that this world was not for it, that the part of me that could function, even if oddly, in the world had to take over. I became more like what would typically described of someone with aspergers.... filling my life with information, logic, and studying. I married a very quiet man, I couldn't connect to others through speaking and it was possible to live in a contained protected way with him. I could never fit in in the matrix, but with him as a mediator I could pretend well enough.
As a child I believe i lived in a state similar to that described by those in the film as the awakening. However because disassociating from feeling was necessary to survive my upbringing and later survive in the matrix, this state of awareness only became pronounce when I was in nature. But I knew it was always right there for me beneath my thoughts. I remember one experience as an adult watching the ocean where I felt myself dissolve, it was so beautiful all I could do was cry.... and later I cried having to go back into the matrix way of life. There was no way at this time that I could integrate this larger truth into my way of living as a human... I had a young child and was studying to be a lawyer.
I guess the other thing is I have always had claircognizance, - I always knew stuff I should have, could often predict where situations would lead and how they would unfold and was too aware of what people feel or want from me -- this was so overwhelming and I think also pushed me to dissociate further from my feeling experience.

Then in 2011, my soul said enough. I became strongly aware of my feelings in a way I never had before... I could not hide from them anymore. I realized I was not going to live the life I was meant to with my husband. I had a hard time making the decision despite feeling miserable for awhile, however I kept exploring, even making new friends.... I was shocked and happy that people were accepting me even when I let my inner freak show on the outside. then I had two profound experiences on the same day. I was in the ocean again and I felt a beam of light warming and entering the top of my head, I felt so happy, it was then that even though my thoughts were not reconciled I knew that I could never turn my back on this joy and go back to my old way of life. then an hour later in conversation with someone - an intellectual conversation about language philosophy the most profound truth came to me as I felt myself vibrating. I could see intellectually for the first time - the matrix. Its like my left brain finally was remembering the truth my right always always felt. One word came to me that encompassed the entire horrible truth of modern existence ... Matrix. After the vibrations subsided I looked around disorientated almost seasick. Its been validating watching the spiritual community's growing use of that word that came to me that day. After that I was committed to self, both my feelings and thoughts were in alignment with what I needed to do and I left my husband.

However it hasn't been smooth sailing at all... I have been plunged into the darkest parts of my self. Eventually I came to learn of a shaman healer who works with people to confront their inner wounded parts ... this has been enormously helpful -like peeling layers off an onion.... I will feel lighter then theres another layer of subconscious learning and insecurities to confront. My shaman is 70 years old and has helped many people, he says I am very unique to work with, that there is a part of me, which he calls my feminine energy that lives totally in the spirit world. In the past two years there have also been new painful experiences brought to me that seemed to catalyze me towards integration. I've ended up getting and leaving a very prestigious job as a lawyer doing work that my former "aspie" self was very adept at... intellectually challenging and which paid very well. My self demanded I leave even though I had no source of income - so I did. I have learned to live happily without very much money - however I can't fully let go of the fear that even basic economic survival itself will eventually become an issue . I have been for the past four years throwing myself into my creativity which has also been a profound teacher. When I TRY to make music its much "harder", softening myself - just playing like a child, allows it to flow out of me with great ease.
Right now I often alternate between feeling joy and excitement, so happy to be alive in this time , to feeling crushed by the matrix, frustrated with my challenges with connecting from the heart with language, economically vulnerable, concerned about my ability to support my daughter and myself. I can't go back to the old -- but I'm not yet totally at ease with walking the path never knowing whats next.
Thanks in part to the 5 gateways film, I now know a way forward through my challenges with verbal communication. I am going to soften into the truth that I really don't have much words to share with others in many interactions, and thats okay even though I feel that others are often uncomfortable with silence and that I myself want to be able to connect with others from the heart - but trying to find words to connect is wrong for me. Authenticity demands that I interact with others in a loving open silence unless inspiration prompts me to speak words, and that the way forward for me is to soften into the tightness I feel around that truth of myself. I also know that watching the film will help me in those moments of exhaustion frustration and utter aloneness to know that there is an experience of alignment with ones truth that lies beyond where I am now that doesn't involve being rubbed roughshod by the outer world.Thank You.



Such vivid descriptions of things that can be so hard to find words for. When I read what you wrote here:

"Anyone looking in at me would think I’ve gone insane, for the inner reaction I am having is completely out of proportion to what is going on externally."

It is so typically how karma takes effect.

Sending love and solidarity to you on your journey.


Hi Kari,

You share your story so simply and honestly. It is truly profound work you are embarked on, keep going!

With love,


Hi Kari,

Thanks for sharing. Yes indeed, we do have to lose ourselves to truly find ourselves!

Keep letting go my friend; of everything that you think you are.

Open *OK*



I am not quite certain which gateway I am in, but would guess the pre-awakening or gateway 1. I do still catch myself striving and searching for spirituality instead of being. That is especially true when around many people or at work. It quickly brings me out of beingness and into my mind and racing thoughts. At times my racing thoughts feel so out of control I am on the verge of tears out of frustration. When alone I am better able to allow beingness to unfold and realize how everything is another distortion or attachment to soften into. I am very back and forth-between being and unraveling, and then going back into attachment and worry. I do love observing everything I'm attracting into my life and feeling where my distortions are that have attracted the experiences. When I began doing so, it literally felt like a layer had been peeled away. After which I lost many labels I had owned and identified myself with. It felt as though I had no idea who I was anymore. In some strange way I loved feeling that. :)


Wow, yes. Such an event is likely to activate karma. My heart is with you.

Just keep working with it. You'll get through it.

Wishing you well



Hi Harmony - I feel for you - yes these karmic experiences can be traumatic when we get into them. But you are supported and helped - work to realise that.

Is there an end to it? Most definitely YES!!!

All these experiences relativistic experiences. They are not who you are. They will ultimately process and integrate. It feels to me as for some reason, this karma activated a little soon in your process. A touch before you were ready, hence the intensity. Have you had some kind of traumatic experience to bring it on?

But no worries, yes there are things you can do besides just feeling into it...

1. Access the feeling, and feel into it (no problems there)
2. Work to become as-one with it, so that you don't need it to go away
3. At the height of the feeling, as you think you can't take anymore, work to become 'the One' in it. It feels like opening a doorway through the feeling into presence. Take a look at the end of the Gateway 4 film for this one... http://www.openhandweb.org/contents/five_gateways/5gateways_documentary…

there will be a word or some kind of tool that can take you into this state of presence. As I explained in the film, for me it was just a word - openness. Open!
4. Finally, you must do something to process out the dense energy. Your soul gave you a clue on this one (I do believe). Go out into the woods and howl like a coyote! It'll raise the ray 1 warrior. Let your strength of will come up and through you.

***Please Note*** as you've intuited, best not to share these kinds of experiences with the mainstream. They simply don't understand.

What you're experiencing is definitely karma, around the birthing process. And I'd say it relates to the distorted birthing of homo sapiens. have you read Divinicus? It would help understand things... Divinicus

And also, have you felt to come on the Openhand Courses? They would help enormously.

Anyway, see how you get on.

Open <3

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Open, thank you so much. And yes, there has been a traumatic experience. I live in Newtown, Connecticut where on December 14, 2012 a gunman entered one of our elementary schools and killed 26 people...most of them first graders. On every level imaginable, this experience has not only effected me as a human and parent, but many people in the community. So, while my spiritual journey has been underway for quite some time, this experience accelerated every aspect...a shattering of the ego, an emergence of my voice, a need for protection from enormous amounts of negative energy and the beginning of this karmic relationship/clearing. I will say, that even as terrible as that event was, I have seen an equal and more brilliant light radiate from the ashes of that day. There is simply a great deal to process. I do know that I was put here in the place at this time for that very reason.

Your notes are more helpful than you could ever imagine. Thank you. And yes, I will read Divinicus and look into the courses. Wish I was in Florida for your latest!


Sounds like a beautiful process Nimue, thank-you for sharing and expressing it into words :)